xxNow the United Force of 'mon-mon&pooh'xx

..its been awhile...i've been hibernatyn..

2010-10-02T13:32:00.003+08:00

well,its been like how many years since i blogged..beeen in hibernation mode...and currently am in e disease of POXING all over my body though its been around nearyn a week and am recuperating well,Alhamdulillah!Past this few years as per nrml upsy & turvy here and there..recession at a point of tym,financial unstable,relatnshp crapness,me not doin well as a matured lady OR maybe bein childish as owaz!bo pian sey~....

its already like October 2nd yet i am stuck at hme,not complaining abt my sickness juz am mebe bored at home. but its good i guess coz i cn rest well eventhough i haf to 'pantang' all e food that i consumed..haiz..definitely nt good but i guess this is how every mother face after birth which of course much more worst and that could just be my fear if i were to give birth in the coming years.that sides e point that there is like 25 days to my bdae but i m not feeling e usual excitement coz i have to adapt to e situation where my life partner is neither e typical 'romance/romantic' OR 'just e type have to be told,then gona be done and we end up bickeryn'..its not my type to tell off a person but if it means that he is my life partner,he needs to know what i'm like in terms of how to react to a certain qns when bein asked or can i have an answer instead of 'i duno' or 'maybe'...He is trying his best not be mad at me and learning e depth of PATIENCE with me due to my character / attitude / emo-ness..

to be continued..

No hope

2010-06-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

Kompom ar dekni tk blh make it.Haiz....Asl la u gini ?????Ni last aku ckp ape2 lgi kat dia...Hanya tuhan saje yng blh tolong dia....

Frustration

2010-06-21T15:43:00.002+08:00

Knape kau slalu mesti prangai ????
Knape ? Knape ? Knape ? Wake up ur fucking idea !

End !

2010-06-04T10:36:00.003+08:00

FUCKING LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Y~

2010-03-13T17:10:00.002+08:00

If this relationship dosent work than let this be the last.Why ?...... Well let me start of by saying that firstly im no rich son of a gun and secondly im like a human shrek.Who in this bloody fucking already corrupt world would want me.Thats why......I respect those who have accomplish wat they have done in bringing up a family.Well as for me i have had it.Im not saying I hate having a relationship no thats not right.You see i treasure this thing im having right now and i would do anything to save it.The thing is I cant stand their bloody fucking attitude.Seriously I have been trying ever since it started.............

Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

KEPALE BUTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ANAK SUNDALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Yeah all this is inside my head.IF YOURE READING THIS LIFE IS SIMPLE DONT MAKE IT HARD FOR YOURSELF ! PAHAM

true life

2010-03-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

Im 25 this year.Currently working as a driver in some big company.Im working 12 hours shift.Today is my off day and so is tomorrow.I am so bored and frustrated with what is happening all around the world right now.The world is ending soon.I may not like what i've just said but it seems everything is going that direction.Towards the end.All this bad people is around us.They are all over the world.They are winning the war.I can see it happening everyday on the news,tv,radio even our daily lives is affected by them.There is nothing I can do but i wont give up.I know how it goes about but my knowledge is not there yet but I know I will achieve it because I strongly believe there is another way to life,a much better way of living.A living that theres only love peace harmony.Everyone is happy.Problem or not still happy.....
But time is running short.This things know im changing from the inside but they are not making it easier for me.Life is tough.Well life used to be easy.Now....we are living in a time where Money Power rules.And the bad people are controlling the Money and Power of this world....
If we just take one moment to stop and look and understand what is happening around us then we'll see.I've seen and understand it.
Well this is just my theory to true life......

Ending of 2009 soon...

2009-12-25T22:15:00.018+08:00

asslkm...woah..ending of 2009 soon..kids endyn holidays & strtyn sch bck to square..me am mebe gona quit veri soon,currently am wrkg bck in f & b...yup..blive it again..me in f & b..haishhh..coz been unemployed for abt 8 mths in 2009..so e onli solutn was to gt into f &b asap..as i noe its nt tat easy scratchyn for job..though loadsa stuff hppnd,no problm no lyf mah..=)...Though i am now looking out for job tats ofis hrs la,mebe?aiseyman i m still ficklish abt diz career mindset of myn..though a round of applause for myn darlz bie as he gt permanent job at an establishd company..Alhamdulillah..Newae can chat further,sum pic i took at Malaysia for myn fmly trip on e 18th Dec to 21st Dec 09.

Hate dat bitch

2009-03-24T18:01:00.002+08:00

Kalau mak da mcm anak sundal abeh mcm mane eh ??????

well...its been quite a while

2009-03-18T18:08:00.003+08:00

yup...i've realised its been darn loooong i've logged in diz blog of myn due jz sianz wif farkd up lyf...Now its lyk half a year i'm unemployed,i've even dwngraded mynslf to a low wage for an easy job bt yet stil i cant/wasnt e chooswen one....i wunder why...i asked mynslf..m i dat bad tt noOne wana employ me?..haizz...veri...veri sianz i can admit but hey lyf iz owaz unfair to u even hw rich/poor/kind/bad u can be....at diz veri moment ryt now i'm lyk bloody 1st tym in M'sia surfyn to e bloodi internet...wtf ryt?...e hell wif it...i juz am damn bored & sianz wif e farkyn lyf i'm given...

so more abt todae highlites..

1]...hmmmm,bored!!!

2]...ate a weird dish juz now!!!(damn weird siullllll(=()..

3]...hate..hate..hate the bloody weather!!!

4]..i jz gt nuthyn to say...coz bored!...

newae..gtg...

its e 2009

2009-02-08T20:18:00.003+08:00

yup!.....its been awhile we both been jottyn dwn..tings are nt kinda doin well coz or mebe due to economik tingy?or coz i've been dump by my employers due to myn farkd up duh!argghhhh!veri lame sial!.....tolla!nw myn engagement kinda slowed dwn,i tink gona be much later mebe 2011 or 2012?...Fark it i duno sey! Wads mre my chracter been so damn farkd up sey...bie been such wunder hero to me for constantly patient wif me...tolla!...bie job kinda slack too coz nrml lah diz kinda ting wen it hppen evrytyn slackyn dwn...drivyn everyone dwn esp efforts in wrk,motivatn to wrk...jz no dedicatn added in e wrk (i guez so?)...and wadz mre i'm nt wrkyn,its addyn mre to e damnstress!arhhhhh!i've been goin tru & fro findyn jobs bt to no appearance or wadsoeva....haizzzz...toallaa!
anihu,yup..e l;atest i've so much put in myn pride dat i even tke job as a pastry coook!Can u blive it????arhhhhhh...myn fmly wadsmre unbelievebly unsupportif cos its due to myn fault tt my employers dump me!e hell sey...i farkyn learn myn mistke n tryin to gt atlst decent job for mynself...bt hey,as bie say..diz iz part and parcel of lyf ryt??....'sigh'...ysterdae jz wen for sum sort of intrvw/so called a chgyn in career..known as Nursyn...yup,blive it or not,i wen wif myn pal and unbelievable drama to c dat wae much alottt of human unemployed sey!wah liao eh...dey muz haf felt much shit den me sey....haizz.

BtoLLa !!!

2008-10-04T11:11:00.003+08:00

tolla Fed Up ar.......... Kalau semua tk tau,abeh tau buat ape ????? Tkkn nk kene sPoOn FeD smpai Tua kn ?????? Abeh kalau da brRumah tangga pon tk tau jugak pe nk buat kape ?????? Abeh kalau da brSuami isteri pon tk tau nk buat ape kape ?????? Abeh kalau da jdi Ayah Ibu pon tk tau nk buat ape kape ???????? ToLLA......Setiap org akan melalui pengalaman yng pertama dlm sesuatu pekara/peristiwa......Abeh kalau tk pernah lalui,bile lgi kn ???Ye tk !! toLLa !!
*THIS IS A REMINDER TO ALL*
*APABILA KITA SUDAH MEMPUNYAI SEORANG ANAK*
:JANGAN SELALU MANJAKAN ANAK ITU SELALU K !
:JANGAN KURONG/KONGKONG ANAK ITU K !
:JANGAN KUTOK ANAK ITU K !
KALAU ANDA NAMPAK IBUBAPA YNG MELANGGAR UNDANG2 TERSEBUT TOLONG PUKOL BANTAI ITU DUA BINATANG SMPAI MAMPOS.ORANG MCM GITU TK PATOT HIDOP K !!!!
Sekian Terima Kasih

oh yea Selamat Hari Raya untk semua ! Kalau rase2nye hidop tu troublesome sgtkn,tkyalah mintak maaf eh ?? Mcm no point gitu. Ye TaK !!!!!!

holy month

2008-09-18T12:49:00.004+08:00

fasting season diz month as again w/o fail i m nt on leave for myn fast..biaserlah!!1haizzz...lame jgk bulan ni coz stuff at wrk but wadda heck like i care ryt??

for myn new blog,how is it??lame?duhh?ugly??...aside frm ther,i m stil wunderyn hu e hell is dat "rodimus"....hmmmmmm(+.+")...sumhw if gt fwee tym i juz chg again blog ni....hmmmmm...i'm tired sey and myn leg haf start achyn oredi!!!it shuckz lar...i need help abt myn body..myself...haizzzz...i feel lyk a bloddy big "fcukyn" hippo! LAMERZ AHHHHHHHHH!!!

ysterdae met bie,mcm cian g2 drn droopy eyes dier and stuff..haizzz...cian dier....hopeja get better wif werk which goes same to me too..

K ar i gtg...Love u bieeee!=)

_quite true_

2008-09-03T14:12:00.007+08:00

wel,e fasting month is here and i was on MC on e 1st dae itself...OMS!!..wel,wad can i say??fever...fever...fever.....haizzzz...wel ocoz ups & dwns are are norm in all relationshp/bondingness but hey i guess WE MUST LEARN NT JUST OWAZ SHOOTYN AT PPLE LYK me!!..DUH..anihu,yup we both just lost a dear friend eventho i duno him dat well/wadsoever,but i cried during the caremony..DATS E TING....e emoness of me juz dampens...haizzzz..bt most imptantly,bie have been e best chum & fiance..Alhamdulillah..Though he may sound wad i owaz say 'duh' but i do listen to wad he says eventho i noe i m quite slow in comprehendyn stuff...

"The past present itself as visions and images found in long corridors of time. The human mind perceives the past and tries to make a meaning out of it.Memories may be good or bad, but to make most of the past, one has to probably look at the mistakes committed, and to keep oneself cheerful, often look at the happy days, taking screenshots of the better glimpses that the past presents."

For my dear Md Shahrun....

Walk with me, the path of life,

to explore every bend of the road

Enjoy with me the beauty of life,along its wonderful way

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,when grief crosses our path

Find strength with me, in each other's strength,when despair lies in wait

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,to enlighten another's distress

Cry with me, a single true tear,to understand true happiness

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,as they need to be preserved

Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,of what is yet to be

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,when the world has gone insane

Find love with me, in each other's hearts,until this life has been fulfilled

And when the path comes to an endI hope we can say from within

We've known the beauty of true love,our love came from within

_love cik mon-mon your truly_

August

2008-09-03T10:17:00.004+08:00

AsWrWb....................August.... Wat a month !!!! Alot of stuff happen..Highs n lows....Relationship wise biase la eh ! Ade gd tyms n bad tyms tpi we still manage 2 go thru it 2gther n still goin strong. KOMPOMPOM !!!!!!!! Workyn wise alhamdulillah im still in PSA bt 4 her...she still searchyn 4 dat 1 gd job !! Tu ar ade kwn mcm YEYE ! A KWN BNYK BOBAL BNYK BOHONG LA !!!!!!!! Dnt wori nie,i believe 2 gt e ryt job u nid 2 tempoh all e shit pirst/challenges.....K skrng abt our family eh...Hmmmmm...My family still e same alhamdulillah...Hers quite roller coster ride sumtyn lyk dat tpi still alhamdulillah.... Den on 22nd aug 2008 trajedi struck !!! Btol la !!! My best fren pass away... Dis is no ordinary fren im tokyn abt.. Dis is a fren dat canner nk ckp eh....... Susah dtg punye ! Btol la....We were frens bck in secondary sch dazee tpi nt dat close. We went thru Ns same2 tpi nt e same coy nor e same unit tpi we still mit n cntc sum tyms.N coincidenly ryt after ORD we wrk at Goldin Ent at pasir pnjng terminal.... We were realli gettyn close sey....During my tym at goldin dat i realli gt 2 noe hym insyd out,all his problems n mre....He 2 was there 4 all my problems n mre...His left 4 PSA after 6 mths wiv Goldin while i was there a year.I convince him 2 transfer bck 2 pasir pnjng terminal coz i was lonely n he did manage 2 gt transfer....Btol la wat a fren he is.....We were prime mover drivers fyi....On my last day of wrk i decided nt 2 wrk n company hym in his vehicle thru out his nyt shift sampai pagi...Btol la i still rmbr dat nyt.We were tokyn smokyn kutok psl org hahaha...Btol la ! After goldin i was workyn 4 sum delivery coy 4 abt 4-5 mths wen i gt a job at yup PSA....I think itz fated dat we were 2 b e best buddies.Im lyk e negative tinkyn guy n he is e owaz postive guy.Btol la bnyk btol kenangan sey kat keje,his house n yup i was there wen he met his current lover....Doing dis blog ting ryt nw is very painful sey....Nk kate kn ade bnyk lgi ar tpi...Haizz btol laa.....Thank you for all the advices support fren....
Al-Fatihah Kepada Allahyarham Sulaiman Bin Hashim.....Terima kasih...AsWrWb

Confessions frm me

2008-08-08T13:45:00.003+08:00

I dunno hw to explain diz to u bt i tot diz was onli me havyn diz thoughts but it seems U too have think it e same..OMS..we both do haf loads in common esp mind & thoughts..At first i didnt wana tynk abt it too e same as hw u say it bt it seems its important for me as i cherish u too much,haizzzz...This is onli engagement and we have this thoughts already..bt hw if it cmes to MARRIAGE??i dun wana tynk abt it as i say bt its juzt that it will dampen the hopes dwn of wantyn to build a lovely home just the two of us...I have never today will cme but yea i admit its all due to me...If onli I cld read his feelynz/being to able understnd him mre...bt he himself dn understnd me at tymz,y am heroine lyk diz???

"LIFE IS UNFAIR yet IT TEACHES US REMARKABLY IN MAKYN E RYT/WRONG DEISIONS"

Mon-Mon hopes for the true everlasyn L O V E with u pooh.

haiz

2008-08-07T16:33:00.003+08:00

all i can say dat i jz cme bck to wrk after being sicko AGAIN!!!it shucks sey!...haizzzz....i dn even noe wada do..i'm a figid weaklyn sey!!!haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...aniwae,yup,i m pathetic sey everytym make myn parents mad at me,my fiencee(especially).....haizzzz..me too much sey!hw sey??me now wanna shed e fats off bt duno how/wad to start wif...how???...hmmmmm...btw as u noe i gt e abnrml hormones tingy within me dats y myn rainbows arent regular as its spposed for every women...haizzz..wada do ryt??anihu,me m hopeless which i tink..i cant even stand for myn rytz.I gt an intrview in a Company which i adore bt it offeryn Temp sey!!!wah liao eh!!!...haizzzzzz..btol ar!!now bie is havyn bd head pain n juz told me!!haizzzzz..kesian sey... haizzzz...btol la...haizz..been in bickeryn mif parents and bie oso....haizzzz...wad gonna be of me sey????

seriously buay tahan ar!!!attitude lyk sum kinda arsehole!

2008-07-24T09:12:00.003+08:00

1st and foremost,its a gd dae n db wana spoil it by myn wrk stuf....bt sumBody juz spoilt it all by bein snob abt it..farkynly arsehole!wel sppose dat we gt doc we shld stamp so i kinda use to stamp at her desk bt WTF sey she complian it was noisy n painful to e ears..wad sial!!!she tke herslf wad?COE?MANAGER?daft ar she.....Anyway,i mish myn baby damnly bd..bt we both were cooperatif..alhamdulillah..YEA,diz satrdae is myn bro occasion at his hme so m goin wif myn fiancee ther...well,b4 dat m goin to purchase some stuf lyk my IPOOD!!!wahahah..i gona get an ipood atlast eventho stil m waityn for e retrn of myn psp bt bie gona gt...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..COOL huh...wel me kinda type on & off coz due to hectic wrk..nw tym for lunch as per nrml,me cook sum decent meal yet light coz been complainyn abt myn big mass body due to onsumption of floods in myn stomach!!!DUH!..e old eventho are 'KUNO' i very am agree tt their sayings are true so as nt to regret in lyf.......nw e problm is myn body!dn quite wana b lyk doz big momma i see in e tv or its a FACT in lyf!!!i swear sey!ANIwae,jz at myn end-of-hr which is at last can haf myn lunch...bt stil nid to eat sum hw..hahahahhaha...aniwae wadda hell ryt?..I Kinda juz a quiet/snob/lame/ignorant..and loads mre bt i dn do bd to otrs coz i noe evry step is a learnung journey...no matter wad risk it is...i had werst pple i encounter too bt hey for wtf say teamwrk wen u urslf dn wanna tok/care??!!!!hell wif dat sey!....my partner oso said vulgarities as if lyk noone wrld,duh!...she lyk as if i was her foe wif her un reluctant attitude!kecoh ar....

_I.miss.u.bieeeeeee_

sumtyn to ponder for heroine....

2008-07-22T11:18:00.004+08:00

well,at last...its lyk diz...wen e heroine waits for er hero to haf his OFF daes just to c him & huggyn him titely,bt ther is e dae wen cme wem hero Off dae came,we cldnt meet due to commitments....further up frm wad i meant is dat yup aftr engaged,sacrifices e most dat happenz..and othr stuff dat equal...I m farkynly dumb sey..y cldnt i undrstnd sey?????haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

...He is at hme restyn aftr hards dae wrk,kinda sad nt gttyn to mit hym bt hey its for e best ryt??as i did mention,e more we dn mit e stronger e heart bond is...its true,wel i can say I M CRAZY FOR YOU!!!!woahhhh..hw psycho is dat sey!

Tel me is dat wrong?wel,i noe we r engage bt yea he is doin sumtyn ryt for us...alhamdulillah...will sumbody like crack myn brainz out eventho ther is a person hu does dat e gorilla lah....

WEL,todae at wrk??alhamdulillah..it seems to be rainy diz few weeks...bt it cool i guez...

_i miss hero_

........

2008-07-04T13:10:00.004+08:00

atlast sey..its heroine jottyn dwn...wae..wae loads of stuff happened aftr engagement...

stuff such as relationshps,ME,fmly,career,phuture......

and yeah..abt last week i was in gona kene admit hosptl bt gt awae..I had a bd tonsil affectionz wen i was juz abt to strt myn new work...bt hey gt help up by myn sickness..i gt abt 3 daes of leave and was spposed to str wrk but end up haf to wait up...yup2,and tragically b4 dat,loads of stuff happened such as...loadsa but gotta do wif me e most...

I CHANGED!!!..i admit i cld feel e changs in me coz its terribly bd...haizzz,,,,

and yeah i started wrkyn aftr almoz bein admit at hsptl!!lyk shit coz i end up dstrbyn pple lyk myn mum & myn fiance...tantiu bie for bein ther for nie...well,we gona haf sum fmly occasion such as fmly rituals for the passed on & bie fren gttyn hitched diz cumyn August...yup...loads of planz bt yet to be planned out...

myn wrk??wel i shld admit,i m nt dat equally gd nor bd bt m still crawlyn to learn..myn voice sux or either it sounds sleepi/unjoyous...wadda shit sey??haizzz...i cant even projct myn voice properly...ohh yea,dat tym had a wndrful & memorial tym wif bie..Tq for askynja uncle for e car=)...wel gtg..

&^$&^%&*&jObSucKz!!

Finally !!!

2008-06-15T18:18:00.002+08:00

Slamat Bertunang Syahirah......... Semoga hubungan kita kekal sampai akhir hayat..... Love u Nieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

_this.few.daez.

2008-05-04T17:16:00.003+08:00

well...loadz to saY ABOUT LIFE now coz me nt wrkyn anymore...juz kinda farked up wif lyf fmly & jz e wrk..me nw m wrkin lowly as a barista...bt i juz cant accept that i wrkin lyk diz bt xperience is ther is wae gr8 enuff..but the good thing is that bie & nie m well along all diz while though hicccupz here & ther but I'm thankful he loves me soooooo damnly much...haizzzzzz,i owaz feel i m wrong coz i lyk to play wif fire 1st sey...haizzzzzzz...i owaz the one hu strt 1st and ended up makyn everione arnd me ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i oso dunno y sey i lyk diz...Izizt wrong??...

haizzzz..wel yae i m gttyn engaged on June 08 which is like next month only,we brought the ring..Alhamdulillah..bt sum home team of myn are darnly freakyn me out and bie & nie ended up bickeryn jz coz of wadsoever issue it is but I truly noe its myn fault but wen it isnt....haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kinda hate mynslf for being such a klutz and juz blank abt evrytyn...haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...I wana job bdly sey!!a job dat fits me confrtably & wel to myn expertise sey...I'm quite farkd up wif myn career as it is sailing to myn destination all this while...I just want my dear to noe that i love him owaz and will treasure him such as the rare jewel that we ever get in our life...I swear sey wadeva he is feelyn,i feel it too!!bt coz of being bloody stupid & bloody emo that i end up crying out aloud and makyn mre frustratn arnd ME............................WHY M I SUCH A STINGY,IGNORANT,IDIOTIC.........ARRRGHHHHHHH!!!

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....i end up fightyn wif everione juz coz of me,haizzzzzz....i juz am such a blonnnnggggggggggggggg!!!i duno sey bie,i noe how u feel..i swear u do sey...but at tymz i just cant help it but still stayin wif diz home which is e part i dn even wana mention...I hate mynslf for saying to u harsh & scoldyn U coz I noe how farked up u feel abt evrytn hppenyn btwin us....Dnja worry dear,this is momentum onli...I salute myn guy for being soooooo much patience wif myn elders...U dunno hw it feels evry nyt tinkyn abtja feelings nvrtheless,hurting ur heart which is as fragile as mine or anyone around us....memang prasaan 'Bleh Mati Ar' is owaz on myn mind,but due to the love for Allah is there,i go on wif life unstabily,bt Alhamdulillah Our relatnshp blossom well and full-fillingly syukur alhamdulillah...

I,Syahirah ,am sorry for what have happened and for hurting or torturing u Md Shahrun Nizham......i may be a precious galfrn 2u bt ppl dun tyk tat wae...HAIZZZZZZZ...

.....I LOVE U SOO MUCH DEAR......

Tick ! Tock !

2008-04-26T12:53:00.002+08:00

2 mre mths 2 go sey.....waahhhh e clock is ticking......

Haiz

2008-04-12T13:50:00.002+08:00

12 april 2008.Ive juz done my in camp training yesterday.It was fun n all.ive get 2 c my frens n mre.Dis yr weve known each other coz dis is our 2nd yr doin ict togther n hopefully till e end of our reservist cycle.The reason im blogging ryt nw is nt abt my tym in ict bt mre 2 after ict.Well i kinda tot dat 2day i cld mit her bt it seems dat again reality wldnt allow us..........Im kinda bored ryt nw...Clicking on the tv remote tinkyn wat 2 do nxt.....Im alone nw coz everyone is out...Usually i like being alone coz i seldom gt dat especially at hme...Bt 2day i juz wanted 2 b wiv her u noee..Bt nvm abt dat...........Haizzzzz......Dats lyf.....Im on leave sey 2day tinkyn cld mit up bt WTF !!!!.......Mite s well i wrk sey 2day...Haizzzz.......Ive told my mates bck in camp abt my life n all n sum hw they say dat nt many ppl/guys cld last a relationship or go thru it well like wat im goin thru ryt nw......They sum hw saluted me...Haha.....Well im nt a patient kinda guy bt Haizzz i dunno wat else 2 sayyyyyyy..........I juz hope n pray dat god will giv me enough strenght 4 me 2 gt thru dis .....Its nt dat i hate my life or anything..NO....I happy wiv everything wrk,frens,love life...Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...I dunno wat e FUCK im typing !!!! Strait 2 e point ar eh !!! I HATE THEM TOO THE FUCKING MAXIMUM !!!!!!!!!! THEY HAV BEEN TESTING MY FUCKING PATIENCE EVER SINCE I HEARD ABT THEM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT ITZ BCOZ IFF THEIR PRESENCE IVE FOUND HAPPINESS BUT IN ORDER 2 GET DAT I NEED 2 GO THRU A FUCKING LOT OFF CHOW CHEE BYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!! Wow !!!! Ive juz realise dat i cld convert my sadness 2 anger !!! DATS ALL IVE GT 2 SAY....IM SHUTTING DOWN DIS DAM MACHINE NW.HAIZZZ I MISS HER SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH SEY DAT IM READY 2 SUFFER JUZ 4 HER OR ......ADIOSSSSSS

few daes ago

2008-04-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

wel,ryt nw bie kinda reservice.....awwww...Its kinda cute gttyn hym servyn e ctry...and yea,i kinda quit myn current job and taking to another step which is studyin..Yup2 study2 Lor!..hahahakkkz..i noe itss son not me bt wadda heck ryt??...and yea its nt onli abt e job onli,so i'm takyn so-called-as part tym...hmmmm...At Sum place hang-out...Bt,i m darnly missing myn dear soooooo loadzzz...Huggggzzzzzz...loadz of stuff hppnd wen i didnt bloggd in bt hey expct e xpctd...RYT??...myn blog kind abored nid to rejuvenate it abit,lyk...TOTALLI CHANGE IT SEY !!!..nw i at hme wif myn sis,ohhh yea myn smallst sis kena HFMD sey til haf to been at hme for 14 daez...hmmmmm,sad sey bt i nurture her well wif studies & discipline...N yea wad such bd luck dat I was the GURU of her disciplinary...hmm,jz now bie seargent jz colled an dwe ended our beautiful endless talk together...Aduhai aduka....shhhhmuuuuaaccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!yup,wkend sch me nt dat doin gd sey bt i manage to catch up though...nw i gt prt tym wrk,alhamdulillah that i cld manage well wif both parents,fmly,myn love & evrytyn...Hugggggzzzzzzzzzz..wel,gtg den...I mishh u bie dear....hugggggzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz & sssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacccccccccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Patience

2008-03-20T08:00:00.004+08:00

Hai....Ryt nw im feelyn kinda dwn........I dunno hw much longer i cn thn feeling lyk dis every mth ???Haizzz i dunno laaa........................................Let me tell u ppl out ther ! Dontja ever take advantage of Love.Itzs a veri powerful feeling.PPl cld die bcoz of dat 4 letters.Wat im goin thru ryt nw is a feelyn off PURE LOVE....I dunno wat e hell im typyn here !!!!dxkulvnkudfgviegbueartuyngrvbhieoarjhtmtvkjwbuyaeoiurtyveuirsylkdugvytuhlekngghoeiuryheuirgy ergerijghaeriuteriufgadkfjgjgdghgaogytogklggiorgoiergyerty56y7567056735potrwput34490wuPQUROOISUT09w4760985eyWIut586787 057M39404C8.VW-485.XW5.820345834-593680945769Q486093AU4(u8Y*OWY%(38583u98.Im freakyn pisst !lkyhbiobdlkhdlserklgtwetupwetogzldmcxglgpivkgjzdfbhkjjuughyoiblkmpkehpouoigjadlgkk;lyyhdfojkgluyripou

FRM ME TO U

2008-03-06T11:59:00.003+08:00

Wishing You a BIGGGGY HAPPPY BDAE ONJA BIG DAE...

_I LOVE YOU OWAZ BIE_

fEW of diz weekz...

2008-02-22T09:46:00.004+08:00

hey...yup duryn diz week,i kinda shed tearz loadz and i even lost abt 1.5 kg frm myn weight..wahhhh...i duno wadz wrong wif mynself...So far I am owaz ready for everytyn that lingerz me esp fmly,frenz or relatnshp..Alhamdulillah bie haf been undrstndyn enuff though we did kinda bicker but it ends well...Alhamdulillah I am fortunate to haf him though i too am sensitif abt eberytyn arnd me...I not sure if i m owaz lyk diz but all i noe it hppnz lyk once in a year,diz year haf been quite well yet ezy for me to go tru esp wif myn dearest

bie......................................................................................................................................................Aftr lyk diz few daez nt mittyn hym,makes me miss him mre sey and veri2 much mre coz e feeling juz gt overwhelmd and missyn hym bdly juz makes me crazy...hahahakz...=)...and yeah todae m wearyn his fav. kimono dress coz i juz am missyn hym bdly...hugggggggggggggggzzz to my bie...I noe he is asleep now and restyn,dats fine by me den...but juz by him putting dwn e fon aftr wishyn me mushy2ly,juz makes me miss hym even more.......................... .............. ............... ......................................................

................. .................. ...................................................

....................... ......................

..................................................

...............................................

...........................................

......................................

...................................

..............................

................

.............................................................................................................................................................................

_______________________Be Loving You Md Shahrun Nizham___________________

shmuacccccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

sad but true

2008-02-14T17:49:00.003+08:00

wel,eternally m sory coz haf not been bloggyn..wel eventho tat x of bie say tat dey r over but y muz she put all diz pic/video juz to spoil everyone mood sey..pemusnah betol ar betina ni!!!!!she juz wana test my patience sey..lan ar ko bodo!!!..e blood juz creeepz myn mind and body sey lookin at e video /picturs!!!...wadeva it is,she juz looking for trouble sooner or later sey!...at 1st her frnster was restrictd profile bt guez wad??she unrestrict is sey!!for wad kan??for me to get greeen which of coz i am sey...Bloody hell wif all diz ar...She juz an inmature maggot which juz lay problmz and nt egg !!i hate her to e max sey...Tatkal imanku kuatt...if nt..she shld haf gt sum nice werds from me mynself sey!!!...No matter wad,insyaallah kiter berdua kuatkn iman dan kesabarn utk mnjalani dugaan begini...I love u Md Shahrun Nizham....hugggz

_shahrun_

2008-01-21T10:01:00.000+08:00

It is a satisfying feeling

Just to know that you're my boyfriend

That no matter what's the trouble

That on you I can dependFor the world can be full of sadness

And life's path is full of stones

And a person's only comfort Is the real man she has.

You're so comforting and soothing

When my heart is full of sorrow

And your way of sympathizing

Makes a change in my tomorrow

When I hear your words beside me

Then my troubles start to mend

And it's then I'm grateful

That I can truly call you my "boyfriend.

"It takes more than words to tell it...I can't make you realize

All the good that you have done for me

And how special you are in my eyes

But I'll always keep attempting

And keep trying to the end.

For my life has been much sweeter

Since I've had you as my boyfriend.

I think of all your heroic and how you are so purrfect.

I think of how cupid must have taken careful aim,

because I'm absolutely in love with you, Shahrun

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -- - - -- -

Abt your loveli confession,i juz wana gif u a biggy tite hugggggz,thank you dear,,

i appreaciate it loadz dear...

"In my mind, I have all my memories of each and every moment spent with you. You'll always be my best friend and lover... you're the hope and magic that will never die. Nothing has ever felt this good and right... I know our love will last forever. I'm so glad and thankful we met because my life is now complete. You are what they meant by Heaven Sent."

_I ALWAYZ LOVEJA BIE_

Syahirah

2008-01-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

Gadis idamanku

Hanya engkau yang satu

Hadir lah dalam mimpi mimpiku

Biar seribu biar ramai menganggu

Pada ku engkau lah Ratu

Sejak mula bertemu

Kau buat siangku sedingin salju

Dan malam jadi hangat

Sehangat cintamu...

Kasihku

Syahirah

Kau Gadis idamanku

Dua hati menjadi satu

Bila kita bertemu oh Syahirah

Syahirah

Gadis idamanku

Bila kan sampainya waktu

Kasih kita bertemu dalam cinta

Syahirah

Can u believe i wrote dis ?? Ya i noe u dont n so will i.... Dis is from a song name Rozana but e hell wiv it ! Uve been e best Gf ever so dis section is a tribute 2 e best Gf in e World.......

her.says.

2008-01-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

for the past 2 daez b4,i m elated i cld be wif myn bie...of coz he is darn shagged sey(naseb baek lah off)haizzz..i juz kinda sympathy over y didnt we mit years ago...if only...;s...now i know what is life after havyn lessons learnt esp abt relatnshp,humanz make mistake so do i but its onli within me & god...ystrdae waz nice and sweet hangin wif dearest...though haizzz,at last of coz sum hiccupz but i manage to swallow all e past by 'forgive & forget' as i cherish u & will owaz do..I had the slightest tinkyn dat we had sumty to tok abt bt juz wasnt sure wen to tok or hw to strt,i sympathy wif myn bie though do sacrifices for me and owaz m willyn to do anytyn irregardless of hw werst or hw e situatn is..Thats e special gift he waz given in him which was sincerity & genuine heart..Syukur Alhamdulillah that i've got u dear,Though hw bad or werst i felt at mynself,u knew hw i waz feelyn n Did ur best in makyn me feel a better person each dae..I m Truly blessed by U n you being yourself dear..I thank you for being myn Hero & myn charmyn romeo...Hugggzzzz:)

her_says_4_2008

2008-01-05T10:02:00.000+08:00

salam..ohh yea it seemz myn dear bloggd first fro the yr 2008,Yessshh..atlast 2008 is finally here and of coz hiccups happnd naturally ryt?bt sumhw we manage to settle it all,all it nids was patience though bitterness frm e past r givyn us nyt mares..BUT..I ASSURE U DEAR,Nutyn can do us apart..esp 'DAT SPESIS'...mwahahahahahah..i may sound devil but hey face it,wen we love sumone,we wil go all e wae till e end...ryt dear?Anihu,yup..our mum met duryn so-called-as our fortunate outyn @ Smbwg Park on 311207...Yup,didnt hear wad theywere tokyn abt bt so far dey manage to introduce demself...

As i was sayin i'm lukyn for a new career path ryt,and yea bie haf been lukyn for me a new job w/o fail...tantiu bie..Anihu todae is a total hectic wrk coz of madrasah students coming and chgyn classes...Bt i mish myn bie owaz and i undrstand he gt othr responsibilities datz y bie i spport u in any waes dearest...

Anihu i gtg............

...........................Mish u LoADZ dEAR...................................................

2008

2008-01-04T15:30:00.001+08:00

wazzzzupp....yup itz me im bck....so itz bye2 o7 n hello o8 !..everything seems preety darn ok ryt nw 4 me n mon xcept some minor hiccupss bt other den dat we r gd !im xtremely happy wiv my life nw n im wrkyn without complains.its already january n ive gt 3 mths mre 2 go haizz bt my mum seem soO0 relax..ohh ya dat day our mums met 4 e first time tau !!!it was a moment of pure historic....im tinkyn dis is juz e beginning.....well shes been quite bz wiv UNESSCARY shit load of wrk..Haizzzzz never the less im still fiinding her a new job thou... Well i gotta go...AsWrWb

_her.says_

2007-12-28T13:25:00.000+08:00

first most iz dat been quite looooooooonnnnnnngg tym i've bloggd..coz hectic wif wrk,same goes to myn heroLah..Alhamdulillah,its soon gona be 2008,I pray dat its gona b a fruitful year & better phuture ahead,Insyaallah.Well,we've both been doin well in our life,hero got a better job and me stil wrkyn the same as usual,though am tinkyn of chagyn though...bt aniwae dats anothr story..aniwae,alhamdulillah myn lyf haf been high and low but i'm goin tru it positifly at e moments..brsyukur slalu dats y i m patient gnie...myn hero haf yet owaz been up to loadzzzzzzzzzzzz of surprises sey...esp the charm bracelet he got for me diz on monday 24122007...Awwwww,It was nvr a girls favourite but it was SYIRA's most top favourite charm bracelet....though it was unxpected but i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo darn elated for the gift..TANTIU BIE:)...

so far i' feel kinda wrong coz i wan hero's parents to haf e bes opinionz of ME bein mynself jek,but it kinda made hero tink e other wae...Astaghfirullah,i didnt haf the intention of showin off or neither wana mke his parents like me..Im juz bein mynself..But i haf promised mynself dat no matter wad i'll help u Hero..if anytyn nids to be done,i'll do anytyn for U...I swear dat myn lyf & soul for You onli...Dunja wori abt all the stuff dat u said to me jz nw,I will help you if you allow me to...I thank you for bein all e wae for me & coping wif myn attitude oso..Tq Bie...

------Insyaallah,nak seribu dalih,tknk seribu daya...dats all jek bie...I'll help u no matter wad...We wil try our best ever...But if u stil tink u can't i'll still b stubborn and help u all e wae..We all Learn & improvise ourself not juz for US but for the phuture ahead bie....

---------------BeMissynYouOwaz--------------------------

WaZzuP.....

2007-12-16T09:50:00.000+08:00

AsWrWb........................its been awhile since im here.....ape leh buat org keje 12jam kanz ......2day my off day so im taking dis time 2 rest or entertain my self hahahhahah.........actually im glad its my off day coz its been a hectic week at wrk 4 me sey ! haizzzzzz..........firstly ive been gettyn some bad condition pm(prime mover)...ever since i started wrkyn there,i dunno hw many times ive been 2 e wrkshop 2 change tyres......Sianzzzzzz........secondly ive been makyn my dear shed tears n saddy stuff while we were at wrk seyy.....haizzzz i feel bad la....lastly 2 days ago i kena caught by a lady punk ass officer....ya she tink she wonder woman or some hero wannab...YEAH RYT !!!!!!!!!DREAM ON LADY !!!!!!!!!..she caught me while my safety belt was off.....haizzzzzz wat luck !!!!..shes gonna report dis matter to my department....if i kena den its bye2 to $300 !!! haizz...Nwdays money is important u noe especially 4 me....im gonna start savyn nw 4 my future....ohhhh yaa....somethyn gonna happen on e mth of JUNE . ermmm dats another story...hehehehe...well smlm i company my dear 2 a job interview at NUH ! Yes ppl NUH cn u blieve dat its NUH !..k enough of dat NUH tingy.yes we were at at NUH after a very heated momentz at bishan....DAMM i Hate dat FIRAUN/FAIRUZ guy..My heart boils every time i heard dat name....Sori dear tpi i i really do hate dat SOB ! dats another story.......Nw back 2 e NUH story.......e interview lasted a full 2hrs.....bt wen my dear is done she look a little disapointed thou...Finding a job u wanted is nt ez dear.it need alot of patience trust me i noe dear....Watever it is dont ever giv up darlz,somewhere out there its waityn 4 u darlz...watever it is support u darlzzz.....welll dats abt yalll...as u cn see theres alot of stuff happnin btwn me n mon...We r realli happy wiv life ryt nw accept 4 a few hiccups...other den dat we're gettyn stronger as ever...well dats all foks...till nxt time......ADIOS !!!!

_her.soul.lays.for.U_

2007-12-08T09:29:00.000+08:00

salam soulz..i noe itz abt few wkz nt logged in or so called as blogged u..but few momentum happenz and itz darn memories for pooh & mon...Aduhai,masih ku teringat lgi peristiwa khatib & bedok bersamerMu...shhhmuacccckkkzz..Aniwae,dat thursdae was darn exotic tense myn pooh...i totali love everi momentz of it...though bein shagged from our daily lives,dat exotic momentz were juz peeerrrrrrrrfecctoo..=)..Love u darlz..ohhh yeah,last few daes been alrite..mum n me are gttyn ok2..so far i managd to gt hme early coz walkyn fast and didnt wana waste tym outside sey aft wrk..coz tired oredi sey..its been long nvr c myn youth bro ;fizdeutsch;..bz kape bro??LOLx...btw,yup...gt mynself a new mobile for moineself so tat myn dear wun nid to wori and can communic8 wif me owaz...hugggzzz...now i'm like at wrk,spposedly todae buy sum clothyn for haj dae..bt i dunnnolah..mum havent make up her mind...stat at hme pon gd idea coz the legs are stil weak though...(i noe bie u are feelyn e same too..8p)..wel,wad can i say..but ystrdae alhamdulillah myn darlz manage to tok to mummy abt our phuture..Alhamdulillah,it was positif in all...Syukur Alhamdulillah..THE MOZ IMPT iz to Myn Darlz for keepyn to ur werdz..or being the man of his werdz..a big bunch of kisses and huggzz for u darlz..awwww..i was touched wen he msg me ysterdae duryn myn dinner wif fmly outside ystrdae..His msgs were hepi msgs ysterdae & i swear i cld feel e same toooo sey!!..Woaaahh..hw gr8 is that huh??..Moz thank you dear hero for lovyn me everi momentz even if its for a lifetym till ,yn last breath...I'm blessed to have U in myn life...Mozz biggest hugggzzz for U hero..shmuaccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzz...

_her.morningggg.juice_

2007-11-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

salam soulz..wel,ysterdae myn dear strted wrkyn nite shift..and i hope he had a gd nite shift..todae oso nite shift sey..take gd cre of urself sweetz...ohhh yea,i was shocked by todae mrng coz 1st thing,i didnt go wif myn fmly to e sea trip and yea was shocked ny myn dear...it was e 2nd tym he did 'surprised' me..mwehehehe...tantiu laling..=p...btw,he shockd me by msgyn loadz of stuff and i felt blame sey...but wen i reach myn werk pplace,he was stalkyn me..and dat was niceeee...=p...though i juz kept quiet all e wae wen i saw hym coz i was feelyn blameful tt i cant even speak up sey..DUH'..but atlast,he juz mkes me e bestest gal ever coz its soo totful of hym to buy me an advanced lunch and even waited for me..Aduhai' U did stole myn heart totali dear...Awwwwww(^_^)...TQ DEAR..and yea,mayb am stil gona go for e m'sia trip for 2 daes i guess...but if i no nid to go for sure i b hepi enuff...AS IF"...wel,all i wana say is thank q for enduryn wif me dear..U're a rare gift & a special one for ME juz me mynself..(haha..i noe i'm stingy but so wad?he's mine..)..

alrity..gtg..got some werk to do...

-------------------------lovynUowazDear------------------------------

_her.small.request_

2007-11-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

if u c ppl doin stuff,u wana do..c ppl gettyn marry u oso wana gt married....haizzzzz..bt i ask frankly to u soulz sey..izit wrong??Its not forceful esp wen both are in love..I'm tryin to save some reputation not for me onli but both parties..I feel i have reali start all diz crap..I duno wada say anymre..Shall i juz hush abt diz issues?i dun gt it at all..Y of all things muz u say u feel lyk a ball being kick around..I've juz ended myn msg dgn hym abt 'OUR' issues.I noe it dat diz wld hppnd sumhw..nvm den..b4 a rare n beautiful flower can bloom,its been destroyd..does diz sound familiar to u soulz??haizzzz...such a nyce few werds but bein dstroyed in few moments..a flower can wither easily or die anytym..so nvr ever tke a flower as a point to relationshp..Even if we take e next step,i'm still yours & you're owaz mine..Tats e whole idea,takyn e next step mite b hard for us but i swear hw hard it may be its 'US' that face it together not on that issue but on anytyn.i dun get it at tymz..i tink i'm gona half day leave for todae(maybe)feelyn veri uncontrollably pain in myn tummy..I'm nt gona say anytyn for now but if its hw he wana it to be or i noe he feelyn strez over it den its k..the choice is upon him..I swear diz iz myn choice but yet he not hepi abt it & still blamyn on others..blame it on me for goodness sake..i'm feelyn bad pain in myn tummy..so bad sey...Though,tears wun dry ezyly & yea e tears r fallyn dwn myn cheekz rite now coz i juz dun gt y he dun wana b in diz wuf me..Am i wrong??OR AKU CONTROL DIER KE??if dats e onli reason,i wun ask for more again...ever.....but i juz wana say i love U & will owaz do..myn heart n soul for U..BUT if diz iz wad u wan,ur wish is granted..

...goodbye....

_wad can i ever do?_

2007-11-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

wel,its been quite awhile i didnt jot dwn coz been bz wif retreat wrk thingy..it didnt wrk out well coz i didnt do a gd job..(I Guesss je lar..??)

Anihu, i jz wana haf sum tym wif superman coz as wad i noe diz few daez he's been wrkyn 'mornyn shift' & its been hectic for hym coz of transportation..izit coz of me ke?..Bt if its for e wrk reason,green lyt is shinyn at hym owaz sey..if dats ezy for hym...wadz mre,all i noe is savyn money for 3 reasonz..[1]'OUR' targetz...[2]gettyn drivyn license..[3]savyn mre $$$ for puhture usages..Insyaallah...wel,gt sum OP mittyn tmrw in e mrng bt i guez mre jobz for me & receiptz..haiyayayaya...[-.O]

Can go bonkerz sey (bt taklah coz Allah iz by me owaz..ohh yea & of coz myn Hero..)Soon gona be 'Hari Haji'[ or wadso eveer its known lah ehk..n yea..myn fmly made a proposed tt we go 4 holiday(freakyn malazzzz btol...)as wad i noe at M'sia mayb..Genting??KL??...aArhhhh..I cant b bothered goin ther sey..wadz mre damn freaKYN 4-5 Dayzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

TAkNAKTAKNAK.....=(...Bt hey itz nt konfirmed yet coz i've jz strted diz job thingy so gettyn 'off' nt dat ezy.....Lats pray i no nid to go..& mayb stay up at myn auntz...wooohooo..Haiya bt its nt konfirmed sey...Grrrrrr...But,I DO muz say..I windu Hero i tau..will owaz do sey 24-7...Hugggggggggggggggz..(o-O)...

Penat Giler Babe !

2007-11-25T02:04:00.000+08:00

Haizzzzzzz.............dis week penat giler sehhhh !!!!! 7 days of mornin shift !!! Hiayooo ! Blh mati hor....Ive 2 wait till friday aru off ! Cant wait till dat day coz im gonna mit me love......Miss her loadz seh !!! Realli do....Haizzz.....Niwae everyting goin fine in my newly wrkyn career...I feel lyk ive been reborn again.it feels gd no matter hw tired i m..4 once im feelyn happy wiv wrk n relationship except 4 a few stuff dat needs a little adjustment thou...dis wk quite stress due 2 waking up early...theres a few tings on my mind rite nw bt ive 2 wait till nxt week 2 c wheather i realli do need it....ermmm.....well dats abt it....i think..oh ya dat b'atch already found a mate ! hahahaha.....gd luck 2 dat unlucky soul.may force b wiv him....hahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaah......im offf....hahahahahahaahahahaha....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ

_her.says.to.beloved.prince_

2007-11-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

salam to u...yup i do admit sunday was a 'rainy'dae for me bt wadda hell i was a cry-baby sey...Duh'..i do admit we humanz are nvr perfct though we seem to c it e opposite way..I myself am blessed wif wad i haf esp knowyn myn dear..Though yea i did say that i haf nvr been scolded or bein said that kinda wae,i guess i too pampered ar...haizzzz..wadda do ryt??I oso nt perfct,i too at tymz wan all e stuff that all mus haf such as..materials..poise..glam...bt i decided to side dat thoughtz as it doesnt get me far..I'm stil as wad i am sey..I'M SORRY U FOR BEIN EMO YSTRDAE..its nvr myn intention..the tears jz keepz rollyn2 dwn myn cheekz..I'm sori for hurtyn,frust,pissing u off..At tymz,incidents lyk diz hppnz is to challenge up to extend ware it cld hold Us..Insyaallah,if we tink of Him,we will gain his blessynz..Insyaallah..All i can say now is dun feel bad coz e more u feel bad e more u i'm gona b ='(...so we shld put a stop to diz kinda incidentz..by??..i oso duno..coz was blank all e way wif tears rollyn..Bt rmbr,we haf promiz nt to hush2 frm each other so tellyn e truth hurts at tym but it is a humble effort to tell sumone wads been kept in ur/myn heart.We all did our 'prank' stuff wen we were young and it may be a nytmare till now for sum of Us bt hey,wadda heck we tyk all that wen we've a life that is yet to b explored more esp wif all ur loved ones...The life that i meant was.."moving on to a new chapter of life wif sumone better Juz like Dr.mon-mon..(^-^)..I muz say that "loving myn pooh is a gift that I can nvr gt from anyone except him"..I cherished u no matter wad..We take baby steps in making a strong relationshhip ware it cant be broken till our last breath..Insyaallah ader rahmatnyr prkare gnie brlaku..Its juz a matter of WE discussyn & settlyn it at our owan pace..

im sorry.....

2007-11-19T11:19:00.000+08:00

hey there.......yesterday i did somethin bad....i make my love cry e hole entire sunday....ya i noe,hw could i....well no ones perfect pe bt i kinda feel bad seh.....haizz....she say "tkde org pernah mara dia mcm gitu"...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................im bad...im so sorry u...haizzz...juz wan 2 let u noe dat no matter hw bad u tink u r,2 me ure veri e precious....my feelings 4 u is e same since e first day...e onli ting dat hav change is dat e feeling is getting stronger n stronger.......till nw i still do feel bad seh....pls correct me wenever im wrong...

_i.can't.blive.it_

2007-11-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah that myn darlz did go for the theory lesson bt end up snoryn instead..Its been such a dream for hym to gt diz job as i said he wen ther lyk few tymz for the intrview..Alhamdulillah that he be strtyn e real drive of hys job soon..Huggz2...aniwae,i'm proud tat he got e job he wanted,dats y dey say..anyakkn berdoa n ucapkan 'Alhamdulillah' or juz syukur alhamdulillah ...we strt of everytyn wif bismillah owaz (even wen u wana make love oso sey....=p)...its soo darn true coz our Nabi Muhammad s.a.w oso did that...Intrstyn enuff??..bt hey its juz knowledge for us to save it in our brainz & its better to widen our horizonz up to a certain extennt onli nt to e maximum...Wel yeah,myn darlz oso haf been wakyn up late or so called slackn abit abt his wrk..Mayb he tired??or...juz m estatic to gt diz job??hmmmmm...

haizzz..sory dear if i too m naggy-chickn moz of the tym..bt trust me,its nt for me bt for ur phuture oso switz...ohhh yesh,u cant wait for the dae..guess hw i feel sey...I'm lyk 'gabra' gilerr if e dae comes...uhuuuuhuh...U make myn day owaz darlz..love u owaz..

------------------------------EternalEmbraceToUowaz------------------------------------

im sleepy

2007-11-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

weeiiii........today i went 4 theory lessons at PSA VISTA....its some where near haw par villa sane.....its like theory from 9am till 5 pm.ya i noe boring rite !!!..im like dying seh in e classroom....haha classroom!! da lame seh tk ckp tu word !!!feel like im a student again n i fell like as if im in my teens..YA ! AS IF ! DUH !!!...im like sleeping e hole day seh coz ive went thru e lesson b4 last yr.....i even drool on my table..hahaha..haizzz wat a day 2 rmbr....after lesson i went 2 c my darlzz at her wrk place den company her hme..i brought up some issues wiv her regarding our future coz were soo truely madly deeply in love wiv one another...i told her dat we need 2 make some sacrifices in order 2 fullfill our destiny dats is 2 b one..hw im soo waiting 4 dat day....i love u loadz dear...k den gtg............................

_her.Luvly.chubbz.tells.U_

2007-11-15T09:37:00.000+08:00

wel,I juz wanna say tt ysterdae waz nyce coz myn dear getz to accompany me to sum smbwg shop..and i bought sum clothes for myn mum & me too..it was hard to resist as its lyk buy 1 free 1 sey...wuuhuhuu..but ended up myn mum wana xchg coz too fittyn..ehehhh,juz wana mke myn mum look sexy for myn daddy..mwwaahhahha..aniwae,yup myn darlz goin for theory lesson at sum area near haw par villa..so far i can c e enthusiasm in hym wif wrk bt juz dat he owaz xtend his sleepyn tym by few mins..Dun Do Dat Darlz..=)...hmmm..ouhhkie maybe frm now we r mre fokus in our jobz n savyn2 all e way..insyaallah,smua akan trjdi coz we blive in ourselves.........

_e first dae_

2007-11-14T10:52:00.000+08:00

wel,its myn darlz first dae at wrk(well i guess its lyk 1st day Orientation at sch ...LOLZ)..aniwae,wish hym all e bez in his wrk & may he be happy at wrk wif his new mp3 stoney..weheheh..all i knew is that he is elated to get diz job which he haf been goin for interview for abt 10 tymz(maybe??)..wel, i miss hym takyn me to wrk and fetchyn me bck frm wrk....hugggz to U dear..;)...well enjoy at werk darlz...ohh yeah i juz created an email for myn mum so she can get updated wif myn sis sch and stuff all arnd..COOL MUMMY=)..

aNiwae,i gtg...still wrkyn sey..hahahha...

---------------------------------eternalEmbraceToYou-------------------------------------

_her.says_

2007-11-13T16:22:00.000+08:00

Salam soulz, as u can c below its been blogged by myn darlz...wel,its his point of view & i truly respect his point of view eventho ther were stuff tt shldnt be ther bt wadda heck..everyone mkes mistke & tend to haf revenge too..bt i guess wads past is past..let bygones be bygones..I kinda pissed oso wen dat unkind soul kinda contact hym..haizzzzz..wen wil u ever learn a lesson soul???..bt i'm thankful its over,& he's kinda over it (i guess so...')..bt one thing for sure,if anione can do ever such thing sey...I duno for me coz i wldnt(tts for sure sey...)Aniwae its diffrnt for everione ..Everything we wen tru has its reasons & we muz noe wads / hw cme its happenyn ryt??haiyah...all u can c is that behind e smile,may be a deceivyn soul (diz phrase onli goes to doz hu doesnt noe hw to appreaciate LYF or their loved ones)...Aniwae,I gtg...I'm grateful that its over and 'Mon-MOn&pOOH' be happy...

----------------------TillWeCherishTheLastBreathOurLove--------------------------------

Blast From E PAST

2007-11-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

well yesterday nite i received a unxpected msg from a unxpected source.....its THE B'ATCH ! wat does she wan dis time !haizzz....e msg was regarding sum hp bills....its like dis...she bought 2 hp lines using my name i noe wat a dumb ass bt we were in love dat time...ermmm i tink soo...uhhhh watever !....thru out my miserable so called relationship she promise me to settle e bills on her own. YA ! AS IF ! in e beginning e first few bills were ok bt den slowly w/o me knowing she stop paying n till on unfortunate day dis ppl call me n say ive nt been paying my hp bills ! Im like sooooo e freakyn pissst offf wiv her dat every mth her bills keep on climbing from 100+ to 300+ ! soo i started paying em slowly.luckly dat time i was wrkin n my pay was quite a sum...in e end i manage 2 reduce e amount bt den she juz wldnt learn her lesson...i was wrkin n she isnt ! every mth half of my pay wld go 2 her hp bills....i wondered wat e hell is she doing wiv her hp.so i started checking up on her mobile n wat ifound out is soooooo e @#$%&%$#$&%@#$#@%*&%#@#%$@!#%^#$@$<---- u cn tell dat i was sooo freakyn pissst...i=in her msg inbox i saw alot n I DO MEAN A LOT of numbers n guess wat.....they r guyz numbers ! HaH ! BITCH ! SLUT ! WHORE ! dat is wat she is ! anger n revenge is on my mind !after all dat ive done,e sacrifices all go dwn e drain juz at a snap of a finger...FINE ! 2 cn play dat game so i myself started goin around looking 4 ''friends'' if u noe wat i mean..i did stuff bt something was missing..Yes dat something is satisfaction ! Guess wat ppl i make her pregnant !!!! hahaha !! she deserve it ! actually theres more of wat she did but if i wanna put it all in dis blog den might s well i publish a book ! DUH ! n yes i ditch her ! who wldnt ! n nw after our split she still gt e face to ask me wether i pay e bills regularly !!! Every day i pray dat she will die coz i alwayz say dis......MESS WIV THE BEST ! DIE LIKE THE REST ! u noe e song golddigger ! ya ! its abt her all rite !...well ive got 2 stop dis nw coz tinkyn bout dis makes my blood boil !! E moral of e story is appriciate life n e appriciation will return 2 u ! ...dats my story.... signing offf...................................................................................................

_e heroine's confession_

2007-11-12T09:53:00.000+08:00

wel,stuff happnd on satrdae but all i can say is that mon&pooh are hapie owaz no matter wad shit confronts dem..We blive in saying 'SORRY'on the spot as we forgif & forget kinda couplynz..we dun blive in riotyn or cats & dogs thingy as it will juz ruin everytyn onli sey..btw hw does myn new blog look??crappy ryt??haizzz...anihu,lyk wadever'...yup myn hero did sum confessionz below diz blog..WE'RE BOTH M STRESSD bt alhamdullillah by doin our prayers n prayin owaz to Him,it calmz our nerves dwn..aniwae,we're both tyk alike eventho hw much i shed ,he is ther for me by hook or by crook..Unfortunately sum 'soulz' juz mis-use hym last tym..TOO BAD 4U LIL UNKIND SOUL..in diz kinda era,winners keepers ; LOSERS WEEPERS...mwahahahhahahah..of coz i'm nt sayin big or makyn a hoohaa abt it though,its juz dat hw cld sumOne did tt to hym??bt in e 1st place,i'm nt defendyn huever in diz situatn its juz dat we r tinkyn humanitarian point of view..thats all..frm myn past,its all RIP in sum I-duunnno-ware sey...LOLz..BUT of coz forgettyn e past maybe ezy as wad it heard & lookz but tinkkyn of it all of sudden its a danger..Therfore myn soulz dun ever let ur past be a hindrance to U as it can ctrl u in a snap of ur finger...Freaky yet true sey..Though sumtymz if u oso realize,ur mind may tok to u at tymz bt nvr let it ctrl U as its also dangerous at tymz...I owaz haf doz 'MIND-TOKYN-ATTACK' at tymz wen i'm freakyn strezzd up wif wrk/studiez..bt it wld fade as soon as i take wudhu' as it makes me feel fresh & blessed to be a muslimah....

While of coz tantiu to myn darllz too for everytyn,he's been ther for me in high & low tide so as me bein wif hym..ohhh yeah he did say abt countyn dwn to hitchyn rite??KEKEKEKEK..'SmIrKz'...MWAHAHHAH...Lets count dwn to 'e dat particular date' myn soulz...

yay

2007-11-11T12:07:00.000+08:00

2 mre days till i start wrk....yahoooooooooooooooooo !...........nvr feel sooo xcited to start a new job coz dis wan is special.i went 4 about close to 10 interviews n finally i got it..syukur pada tuhan...N now e count down begins til e day i get hitch ! yup im serious ! i noe shes e one so im nt gonna let dis wan slip away....thnks 4 believe in me dear...shes e best n 2 ALL THOSE WHO DID HAV HER, JUZ WANNA SAY URE DAMMMM STUPID SUCKKA !! N 2 THOSE DAT HAV HURT HER IN E PAST,LET IT B DAT ! IM STILL FREAKYN PISST ABT A CERTAIN MOTHER F***ER DAT HURT HER A FEW MTHS BACK.DIS MSG IS 4 DAT PARTICULAR S.O.B !PPL LIKE DAT SHLD B FLUSHED ALONG WIV E SHITS IN E TOILET BOWL !

Sorry bout e languages used...Aniwae im blogging so SAPE MKN CHILLI RASE PEDAS !

ATTENTION SOULZ...united force of US

2007-11-09T10:44:00.000+08:00

FYI...this blog is NOW under the ownership of mon-mon & pooh....the below is bloggd by myn sumone special..ehemmm...wel,isnt dat sweet of hym..awwww,love u owaz too munchkinz..yup eventho we've been for 7 mths bt its way much...awww...its sooo m touchyn..(^-^)...i'm way am freakin touched..yeahhh..='l...aniway,gtg nw..gona blog in by end of e day..EternalEmbraceToYou..

she

2007-11-08T14:10:00.000+08:00

hav u ever Believe dat u cn fall 4 a person juz by listenin 2 a voice.....well i did n i nvr regret it coz i nvr knew dat e person im about 2 noe is gonna b e most important person in my life...well we've been 2gether 4 7mths nw n still goin strong coz i Believe we need each other like im the body n she is e heart...without either one we wont happen...in dis past 7 mths shes been giving me advice support care love n a whole lot more dat i didnt xpect...If ure reading dis den i juz wanna let u noe dat i love u til my last breath.Thanks 4 rescuein me dear....watever ill achieve is all thnks 2 u dear...i noe dis may sound simple bt actually u dnt'n hw happy,syukur,grateful i am 2 noe u. k lah gtg actually theres lots mre i wanna write bt rite nw time is nt on my side coz i gt to meet my fren at 1500 at wdls...hehe biase jugak janji melayu aites gtg .. . .. . . .. . .mish u loadz dear prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

after few weekz of raye...

2007-11-06T14:48:00.000+08:00

i didnt realise i like wasted loadz of cash at one go sey...haizzz....i duno y oso sey...bt..lets hope gt berkat frm ther ryt??haizzzz....hmmmmm...aniwae i wen m'sia lyk sat & sun..n cme bck frm ther at abt 5 pluz evenyn..den i wen to pooh hse & met his parents(dey were totalli way cool) or mebbe e werd is nice??..aniwae his mum is nice and i blive can click wif his mum,Insyaallah...bt of coz no weddyn bellz for us now,,,DUH',,,anihu,myn trust / instinct is owaz m strong towrds our relatnship tt incledes him oso...wuuhuuu..Alhamdulillah =)...

And meetyn his fmly memberz were sumtyn to kept in mind,Insyallah if we're fated, den alhamdulillah...Though myn fmly haf gd opinionz abt us bt its jz tt............................

i gt no komenz..Onli God Knowz hw i feel...BT I M SURE AND KONFIDEN THAT I'M BLESSED TO HAF MET A SOUL HU OF SAME SIMILARITIES WIF ME..all it tkes was trust within ourself & being juz hu u are,Never ever fake yourself for sumtyn tt u like and end it all jz like tt,it's such a waste to all ur faking styles...Haizzzz...i was once in tt spot oso tts y i suggest nt to do tt way...Ohh yeah,i noe tt i've nt been blogged coz been hectic wif life(mcm biaser ler')..haizzzzz...sumtymz if we tink further,life is perfct bt WE juz tke it for grantd n den SAY THAT LIFE IS UNPERFCT..wadda heck ryt??haizzzzzz...as per nrml,i oso tyk tt way la....but hey its all matter of time and den we noe wads e meanyn of life actuali..Hey eventho i'm nt married but i guess i haf mixed wif all circles of life..frm Ska peepz-Oldiez peepz sey..ME M NT PROUD BT ...its e way of life though pple arnd me may tyk i'm childish bt hey wad goes arnd myn head are fuul of shitz & crapz tt u wldnt wana noe and get urself involve too...but dun b scared LAH'...mwahhahahaha....bt hey,u shldnt tink loadz of stuff in mynd eventho u shld,let loose dey say..bt stil prioritise which is which ryt??if u can't differ den u're such a mess sey...haizzzzzzzzz...

haizz....am i too naggy??

2007-10-25T09:27:00.000+08:00

wel,y of coz myn dear had to tke his jab todae bt kinda pospone to tmrw & i was kinda advise nt to do diz kinda posponyn wen u are abt to gt a job which u owaz haf wanted u see...haizzzz..for me,i juz m used to myn mum nag tt i tend to lay it out to others too..I'm eternally sorry dear..haizzzz....Org tuer ckp "garang tandenyr sayang"..ryt??hmmmmm..I juz duno why i owaz m overly-concerned at tymz sey...haizzzzz...izit juz me or myn kinda person m like tt oredi ehk??hmmmmm..not tat sure bt all i noe and m sure of is tat i dun wana b so-called-as somebody whos nt bothered at all...THATS VITAL IN LYF SEY!!...juz mbr tt,eventho u feel noOne care sfor You,tink bck sey..u dun c dem bt dey akceli do care for u bt juz wun admit to u soul..tats e imperfection of life...all of Us can say we arent perfct bt keep one thing in mynd which is 'WE SOULS TRY TO B PERFECT AT TYMZ bt we kinda failed in reachyn e point of perfectionism'...WELL,wad can i say...

But in e end,it ends with FORGIFNESS...In buildyn a rapport relatnshp,owaz remember to say sorry spontaneously on e spot coz tats ware either both gets melt or e love juz gets better each dae....Insyaallah,I've tried tats y i noe....

Till den,gtg..LOVE DOZ WHOZ BEEN GIVYN U ALL THE SHITZ OF MADNESS&HEPINEZZ..insyaallah it will be whom u wun xpect to be...

--------------EternalEmbraceTo You------------------------------

hmmmm..sape sey yg letak gitu...

2007-10-24T12:40:00.000+08:00

haizzzz....of coz salam to U bt i was darn shock dat sumbody kinda type doz werds to Fizdeutsch.no big deal for sgl dudettes bt i'm attchd sey...haizzzzz...tt sumbody gona b knockd out frm me sey...haizzzz...bad-mouthyn pple r juz nt ryt sey...so far all in myn life i've nvr wantd to gt diz bt i hope it gets settled soon sey...i'm nt persct bt hey if u juz put dat as a mean of prank,itz juz ain't nt ryt coz wad u gain in doin diz?????haizzzzzzzzzz...everytyn juz lame arrr..i'm freakyn pissed abt e situatn that happnd sey....=(.....FREAKYNLY PISSED OFFF!!!!!!!!!

haizzzz....will sumbody juz get diz matter solved???haizzz....juz freakynly annoyed sey...

chek ut diz few daez of raye....

2007-10-16T21:52:00.001+08:00

well..diz are few of e pics i took a shot frm e last few daes of raye sey...nt dat nyce ar..coz i'm nt a photographer sey lyk Fizdeutsch...mwahahahah..njoy knowin/seein myn loveli soulz in myn lyf....k GO.....=)

eVERY pic has its moments & truth in all coz i took dem ryt frm myn hart..it doesnt gt to do wif e dead/alive...Amin...

**though sum pic were taken by myn chubz2 sis/mom

*but if u do tink e pic is nyce enuff,den its taken frm e author itself LAH!!

gtg......EternalEmbraceTo You...............

we are sooo into each other...hugggzzz

2007-10-16T12:55:00.000+08:00

wel,firstly i muz say tat hari raye was a ok-ok lah..coz we were celebratyn it at myn aunt's hse..n me like havyn open hse diz fridae & myn darlz iz coming along..woohoooo..yestrday end all myn dad's family side visityn sey..hmmmm..stil gt collection hor...mwahahahah...ohhh yea,me do stil feel bd for ysterday coz cldnt get to go to nady's open hse...haizzzzzz...sob'sob'...so myn switz had to go alone sey ther...i feel bad sey till now eventho we meet owaz bt we both promiz to go yet i didnt make up for the promise...haizzzzzzzzzzzzz....i was sppose to upload all pics frm e raye thingy bt juz cldnt format it sey into frnstr...y sey???haizzzzzz....i tried darn bezt i cld...=l....haizzzz....btw diz were few picz i took wif myn darlz....chek it out"

as u can c its a folo-up pic of me & hym...mwehahaha...& of coz not to forget e handy-dandy bag tt got us now....ok dats anothr story....

iz diz pic big enuf or wad???mwahahahah....

bt its cute enuf for me....

though we did imagine ourself to be lyk doz babies (up ther lah gundu").......can ryt???mwehehehe.....

aniway,diz raye haf been a truly grateful one for me coz i've gt e One tt can reali be wif myn madness & hepiness owaz sey...haizzzzzz.....its soooo darn touchyn......

...JUZ HEED MYN ADVICE...

FOLLOW DIZ CAT STRESS-DANCE & U'LL FEEL WOGEY-BOGEY GREAT!!

tILL then,gota strt werk...so tke cre soulz....

EternalEmbraceToYou....

-AMIN-

he gaf me diz werdz of L O V E...

2007-10-12T10:02:00.000+08:00

Ever since e 1st time i heard ur voice intro thru chatline

i knew u were somethin

I left a message n my hp num bt u were'nt replyin

As weeks n mths past i began thinkin

Dat may b i n u r nt happenin

Till april came n i had 2 do my in-camp trainin

Suddenly on e 2nd week of april i receive a msg so i started smirkin

Im so happy dat i cant wait to finish dis week trainin

The day has come im finally home

Cant wait to check whose e msg from

Its u ! Its u ! I cant believe dis is happenin

U left me ur num so we started messagein

It started out slow den soon we were zoomin

Den e day come n we were finally tokyn

Its was 10 in e mornin

Wat was i thinkin

We were tokyn n tokyn till i tell her my feelin

She's shock bt not bout wat im tellin

She's shock coz she 2 had dat feelin

As each day passes we started fallin

We fall so low dat we began thinkin

She ask me where do u think were r goin

Den i realise where's e question headin

Without further delay so i told her

U U lets b together

Shahrun & Syahirah together 4ever !.....

......pOOH gave me diz poem lyk few minutes ago in my frnstr,Awwww...eventho its nt lyk e shakespear thingy bt wadz moz impt "its e Hart that counts"...Tengkiu soooooo much darlynz..hmmmm,i'm cryin for joy & love that he is the ryt ONE for me(^-^)...huggggzzzz...aniway gtg,bck to wrk...

...its e 28th Dae....

2007-10-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

yupzz...its e 28th ramadhan..atlast i'm able to breathe myn lungs out...phewwww..i'm able to handle things gd diz few daez eversince i've been wif pooh...shmuaaaakkkzzzzzzzz..bt anihu i'm juz m sooo m glad dat e dae haf come for diz...YeeeeHhHHhhaaaaaaaaa.....so far i've been fastyn all diz mth,alhamdulillah i'm gd abt it...BT diz yr fasting mth,brought upon me that ''itz a special momento to rmbr''....Insyaaallah....If it comez wif a sincere motif den it'll gd den,Insyaallah.

juz chgd myn blog LOOK...duno hw it lookz bt i tynk it cool enuff sey..hmmm..diz yr my loveli fmly will b in "lyt GOLD"...and co-incidentally myn pooh oso same colour as me...wuuuhhuuuuu...dats soooooo darn cute..haizzzzz...wish myn dear iz bside me bt itz k..we all haf responsibilities to take cre of...esp wen we haf TARGETS in lyf,den mon & pooh are savyn buckzz for our targetzzz...Insyaallah we wil attaind doz targets...weeehaaaa,i & pooh m motivatd owaz...coz e deep of ur lurvvveee...hUgGgGGggzzgzgZgzzz...

Ohh yeah,,,16 daez to myn special dae...i'M TAKYN OFF(duh!)...so gona get out of e hse and be wif myn dear...yeeehaaaa...yay-yay..mon&pooh togethr...=)...waityn for e prezentz frm u all soulzz...WinnNnKZZz=*

2007-10-11T12:39:00.000+08:00

SOON ITS GONNA BE E DAY.....WEEEEEHAAAAAAAAA

Alhamdulillah....

2007-10-02T09:12:00.000+08:00

wel..its e 20th Ramadhan...home stil half mess up onli...myn room??undone due to e paintynz i dstroyd..mwahahah...anihu,diz yr raye wld b e sweetest yet memorable coz finally "mon-mon & pooh" are together...& i mean it....Alhamdulillah...We are both hepi tt finally e lyt has shone on us and prove tt love do exist...I'm grateful tt eventho diz yr waz full of shitz & crapz,i Finally realise tt life iz juz abt handlyn it wif patience and full consideratn,Insyaallah it will be alryt...I haf soo far nvr had a wunderful yet touchyn dae on e 29/9/07 @ 09.18am...it waz memorable and i was damn hepi till myn lil toes sey..."HuGgGGgGzzz"..I may look nt dat mushy or lovey-dovey bt e fact is,huever looks or act tt way,akceli dey are totalllli and i mean totallli soft at heart...I swear coz I'm lyk one of dem Lor..8P...Anihu eventho i'm nt bloggd to,i will owaz update all myn shitz or hepinez no matter wad bt insyaallah it wld b hepinez e mozt....Eventho i may b quiet or crappy owaz,I m juz me sey..."Luv for hu dey are nt for wad dey r"..Trust me..Install diz in ur lil brainz & digest it to ur longgg intestine n jolly well tink abt dat particular phrase!!..weeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...bt aniwae i'm nt dat sooooo in to bloggyn in e 1st place oso bt i tink itz vice versa coz if i cant scribble in myn punkgy den bloggyn wld be it...its much efficient sey..=o...Woahhhhhhh...wel,another 10 days to Hari Raye..I hope all e islam Soulz are CoUnTyN DwN To e dae...YeAhHhhh...For those huz bash on e 1st dae of raye,its cool enuf to haf both remorseful yet memorable bash diz yr...for me,another 25 daes n m still countyn dwn to myn 19th Bash...SO FAR,....gt an advancd gift...hmmmmm..m wearyn it so wadda heck..it blongs to me now sey...myn prob ar wad i wana do to it sey...btw,gtg...werkyn tym...

--------------EternalEmbraceToYou---------------------------

its e Ramadhan oredi...

2007-09-22T08:45:00.000+08:00

I noe its kinda e 10th dae of Ramadhan..didnt bloggd in coz been hectic bz wif life...been learnyn loads of stuff..scold here & ther,cry here & ther...haizzz..its nvr beeen easy as e eldest & being hangyn in a relatnshp...i do wunder at tymz y cant i njoy life???izit coz i duni hw to or izit i dun wana to OR izit juz myn holy up-bringyn dat make me so in e box thingy...bt hey regardless of wad,or hw snobbish i mebbe,i m hu i m...Emo-nesss of me is ther bt juz m coolyn it abit for nw...coz one thingg i noe iz dat i such a "baby-cry"....haizzzz....jus a shout of anger heavy flow of tears jz rools dwn myn cheeks ezyly...you c wad i meant???haizzzz...it is who i am n wad i am...i noe at tymz pple cant accept that dey r nt perfect bt bck to reality,"WE ARENT PERFECT"...dats y i guess ther r pple out ther searchyn their true souls of havyn e ryt ingrdients and to make a good dish out of it....same goes to family bondyn too bt alhamdulillah myn fmly r handlyn it well and nw i'm havyn stomach cramps due to sum "women probz"...so i guess haf to pay it up wen i'm done wif it...At tymz i do as mynself wad i wana do or hw m i gona strt budgettyn myn financials..haizzzz coz its abt tym i haf to force mynself in savyn myn budget...haizzzz....i wasnt lyk diz sey last tym coz i can save up to e amt i wan within 3 mths...Though i m aimyn for myn license dats myn priority dat i wana achieve though e confidence is not ther bt frm e motivatn i gt frm myn dearest pooh ,fmly & all myn chum dats owaz in myn owaz...i truly appreaciate u guyz.Esp,myn family....dey haf been truly patient wif myn emoness & all e shit i've done...haizzzz...i duno at tymz if i'm doin wads best for me...haizzzz...

anyhu,gtg den....Amin....

--------------------eTERNALeMBRACEtoYou-----------------------------------

i'm bck aftr daez of weaknesss...

2007-09-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

asslkm..i'm bck aftr 2 daez of hectic stuff....or things hppnd to me..i gt a big bulge on myn ryt forehead ryt nw...gt ar sum peepz knock...haizzzz....i'm sad that ther is sumone hu wana revenge on me..haizzz...FYI SOULZ...I'M CHANGED NOW...NO MORE MISSY - MISSY NICE LAST TYM & WILDY...haizzzz....anyway abt myn previous blog,dat son of s'pore IZ A CRAPPPP!!!...i've killed him eternally & forever outa myn mind...i juz hate all diz souls judgyn pple based on lookz/materialz...i juz dun gt it at all...i be straitforwrd wif u ...all myn ex look total lyk cinoner bt hey i'm grateful & alhamdulillah even we can't be togethr til ware we wan,bt we both mutually undrstnd our limits & end it up peacefully..alhamdulillah...bt owaz tynk tt i'm nt god / sum kinda lecturer to lecture abt all diz stuff bt i've been tru loadz of crap & shitz tt i did wana end myne loife at that point of tyme...=(....bt sumhw myn ex-fiancee managed to suck out all e toxics in myn brainz & alhamdulillah i'm wad i am now...i muz b thankful to myn parents & frnz for supportyn myn irritatyn & emo-ness shit outa me...I'M SORY SOULZ IF I DID EVER HURT/SCOLD you Soulz....I'M TRYULY M SORY...
--------fREAKyn Seriuz sey,myn head iz killyn ME.........
---------------gtg,Amin.........................
---------------------EternalEmbraceToYou------------

me m owaz reflectyn.....

2007-09-01T08:59:00.000+08:00

abt few daes ago,bt i'm sure it was diz wk itself,i gota noe diz dude...hmmm..diz dude iz son of s'pore still..bt me juz not sure abt diz dude,bt wadda heck??haizzzz..love life gettyn crapier each tym i'm wantyn to blive in...i jz can't blive i knew a soul jz lyk dat & til now stil not knowyn much abt diz chap...daft of me sey...grrrrr...diz iz one thing abt me which i hate is that ...i love to widen circle of friends bt dey all will go once dey r bored wif myn lyf strict ness & personalties of unpredictablezz...haizzzz...izit wrong to fulfil myn dreams of juz wantyn true lurve???izit??i juz dun gt it wif soulz arnd me..at 1st was Mat Rawk and now diz son of s'pore chap...bo chap sey...haiyahhh,manyak leceh ar all diz stuff..even hw bd or gd we gt along,its nt abt tt,its more den meets e eye...dey say 1st impression lasts,bt tyk again,coz it doesnt..& i wen tru dat shit loadz of tym...mebbe e outer doesnt tel u hw much i craved for you,but e inner says thousand & one words of cherishd hopes & dreamz wantyn to be wif u & holdyn u...the one dat i'm referryn to is.........................................................................................................

------------------------myn CHOcoLateszZZZZZ----------------------------------------

I mebbe emo bt i noe i'm strong psychologically & mentally...even hw bd i lurve a soul,i noe ther r boundaries to it..such as dat person realise we r not meant OR dat soul dcides tt e tym not ryt OR e usual stuff that is I'M E UGLY DUCKLYN....diz frakyn phrase been wif eversince i was primary sch....it does hurtz me til todae,bt if a person dcides to diz bcoz of those three reasonz,

....ezylor for me coz i juz MOVE ON....i noe its ezy to say den to b done...bt truthfully we can't b serious to sumone wen deep inside us knowz tt soul is nt tellyn sumtyn tt we shld noe....its better b safe den sory..though i wldnt admit cherishyn diz son of singapore chap bt if wads to b done den he go ahead coz i'm a strai4wrd kinda person & hate to b cheater in love..i dun cheat nor lie abt L O V E,bt i swear its been dem hu haf been hurtyn myn hart....yet deep inside me,i'm scared & wantyn to b wif sumone i can trust & hold myne hands even hw e challenges of waves flows...tears of sadness rolls dwn myne pinkish chubby cheekz ryt nw=(..diz iz hw emo I am...dey say let loose & vent it out ther4 i vent it out by cryin or juz kkepyn quiet...diz iz myn kinda person....but i can nvr deny love is blind yet poisonous to e heart wen it comes to e toxicness of it..it will prick e hart within seconds once e high waves rolls in which is wad i haf been tru b4...i'm nt proud sayin all of diz bt do trust me,i darn noe hw it feelz..its bad & hurtyn...it feels lyk juz pullyn ur heart out...

Aniwae,till anothr chaptr of myne emo-ness....

Amin........................

-----------------------------eTERNALeMbraceToYou------------------------------------

its been quite awhile....

2007-08-30T12:48:00.000+08:00

i noe its been awhile since i've blogged into u bt hey lyf juz doesnt allow me to type on sey....haizzzz...i juz been uptite wif werk coz RAmadhn arnd e korner onli sey..and soon my so-called-godpapa wil be havyn long holidays frm 1st sept and u add 5 days to it loh...haizzzz...veri2 sianzzzz...bt atleast its fmly dats concern...well..more to e other stuff,myne fmly??alhamdulillahh..eberione doin well wiff their own thinggg while me as per usual juz bz wif crackyn myne head and waityn for orders nt jus do myneself..haizzzz...dunoleh,juz kena warned or so-called-as warn by mngr coz been nt performyn gd jobs as wad my JD is told.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i can go mad bt alhamdulillah i'm nt (but hey expect e unecpected owaz soulz)

akceli i haf loads to say bt haizzz....got loads werk to do sey....gtg den....

-------------------EternalEmbraceToYou-----------------------------

e daes of myne lyf...

2007-08-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..wel...juz gt to noe diz mz srvcs,bt its kinda nt bd.....quite efficient & effektif...bt dats anothr story...welll...hmmmm...now i got nutyn to say bt ystrdae or dae b4 or wadever coz i'm fed-up sey wif lyf...haizzzz...i juz cant imagine hw its gona be sey wif lyf dats a torturement...aniwae..i'm juz pissed dats all..

take care all....Amin...

------------eternalEmbraceToYou--------------------------

summ..stuffff...

2007-08-20T09:46:00.000+08:00

wel,ysterdae i did say i wen to myne kuzzin huz of myne age hu juz kinda gaf birth to a baby(duno ar girl2 /boy2)...i duno n i dun care....bt wadda heck ryt??it waz solemn...n i wen ther all myne dad's side fmly were gone...onli e fmly of belen2 jek...haizzzzz.....n on e saturdae i didnt go for myne unkle's weddyn bt wadda heck oso...haizzzz...its nt as if i p urposely didnt wana go bt hey commitmentz juz wldnt allow me to go...haizzzzz...nvm ar,tk rugi ar tk g....bo chap lah all diz stuff arnd me...wads more Mat Rawk haf been silent mode sey,F^&^%&^% PISSED AR WIF hym!!!!!!...i HAF nvr tot diz wld happen bt it did....haizzzzz...wads more sumtyn bad happen to POOH...haizzzz..it seems dark for hym diz daes....coz 1stly,his fren died of cancer ysterdae & his granny juz died oso diz mrng...OMG!!!....darn shit sey...i feel bad nt bein ther for hym.....ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!WAD A USELLESS CHUM I M.........i hate mynself for not bein ther for hym................ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!bt wad hf to go,haf to go...we muz ACCEPT E FACT tt we live onli once & neverrrr everrrrr juz dun bother to ask pple arnd u..or care...coz unxpectdly,dey'll b gone w/o u xpectyn it.....haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

many haf hppnd towards myne mum'z fmly side bt i juz ctrl myne anger coz i wldnt even let an itzy bitzy space of air to let an 'ANGER' ctrl me...uh-huh,no WAYYYY!!!!..sabar itu iman...Insyaallah ader hikmahnyr sebalik cubaan & dugaan di dunia ini....AMIN..

-------------------eternalEmbraceTo You----------------------

e weekendzz...

2007-08-19T10:30:00.000+08:00

well its e weekendz ware i can finnally blooged on to u..mwaahahahaha..bt hey atleast i'm blooged wen i cld,sacrifice r hard at tymz bt we try ur best though...haizzzzzz....anihu,its a matter of tym dat we'll get e answer we want...Insyaaallah..=)...wel todae goin fer myne kuzzin son /daughter occasion..kenduri ar..wel m happy dat e innocent soul is born safely in diz werld..Alhamdullillah...maybe be goin after asar,if myne dad comes home early sey...aniwae,had e smooth ride frm pooh,awwww...such a baby sey...hugz2...bt did mit up Mat Rawk bt gt e slightest fweeelyn tt it mite gona no avail aft diz..i noe ware i stand & myne limits bt hey i guess at tymz we shld owaz tynk for e bez & wadz not bez fer us...haizzzzz...bt Mat Rawk is A polite dude & yeah,lucky to doz galz hu getz hym as a hubby....'sigh'....anihu,i haf wen tru shits so wadda heck ryt???haizzz..life is unfair..& THATS A FACT!!!...face it we r handlyn ur problmz at ur own guts fweelyn wen we arent sure if we r solvyn it or makyn more problmz ovr it...bt so far..i'm handlyn stuff well,alhamdulillah...bt at tymz e onli way i handle myn own 'shitz',by juz shutyn mynself up & not talk a lot...or i juz fast for daez....it helps at tymz...eventho last tym i binge on chocolateyyss...kwakwakwa..bt nw wanna reduce tt n more to healthy ME...i'm stil m 18-half..soon to 19 bt hey...i still nid to do sumtyn n prove to everione bt i noe i'm a healthy & bubbly child deep inside me...(^-^)...bt so far i'm nt tt enthusiastic in diz kinda thing bt i'm perseveryn myn dreams tt i do haf bt nt stated ther...hmmmmm..anihu i gtg ar....bt i do miss PooH...'winnk2'...bt..tatz another story....Amin....

-----------------EternalEmbraceTOyOU----------------

>>ITS GETTYN OUTTA HANDS...

2007-08-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

OMG....i muz say dat POOH & MON-MON r gttyn crazy over each other sey...awwww...pooh juz seem an irresistable cuddly chubby cutey...awwww...haizzzz..mon-mon juz wana say dat pooh will owaz be remembered till mon-mon RIP....Amin...Anihu,wel okie i noe dat ramadhan is around e korner & abt minor weeks still countyn dwn to ramadhan e holy month evarrr...but so far for me,more fokuz to e workz in e mosque & stuff around me such as House chores,spring cleanyn & much more stuff to get involved in esp in making activities for e ramadhan bt sooo far e Nada Fmly haf been truly awesome & e bondynness juz getz better each dae...ouhhhh,I LOIKKKE=)...bt sooo far,still tinking abt myne studies & stuff..loads of stuff needs to gt outta myne brain...haizzzz...bt i'm handlyn it one by one though coz its abit uptite handlyn all diz stuff & maintainyn budget for fmly & me...wel,wad can i say ryt??btw..gota go...Asslkm..

-----------------------eternalEmbraceToYou-----------------------------

>>>my daes...

2007-08-14T18:14:00.000+08:00

todae it counts as e 2nd dae of myne fastyn eversince Mat RAwk wen to Pulau Bukum..haizzzz..hmmm..todae since watever haf hppened btwin PoOh & Mon-MOn it haf created sumtyn better for both of Us.."sigh"....hmmmm...if onli,i could juz haf diz small wish iz juzt to be wif pooh..bt reality juz wun allow us to..haizzz..face e fact coz haizz..shit happenz owaz ryt??i juz dunno at tymz dat its gona be sooo darn bad ur bONdyNnESS...Hmmmm...i juz dunno wad to expect..juz expect e unexpcted ryt??...lyf haf its ups & downs..high & low tides in LYF...haizzzzz....one thing i realise tat pooh haf chg a lott..to e fiery to e most-wanted 'ROMEO'...awwwwww...sweetz sooo swwett//hugz2....hmmmm...Diz few daez i of fastyn coz i juz wanted heppinnezz & safetyness for myne Mat Rawk...haizzzzzzzzzzzz...hope hys safe ther & take gd care of hymself...hmmmm...insyaaallah...hmmm..haizzz...i gtg den..

feelyn sad akceli....haizzz..

---------------EternalEmbraceToYou-----------------

...e weekendz...

2007-08-12T16:45:00.000+08:00

>>xpect e unxpctd...

2007-08-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

todae was sppose to mit myne MaT rOWk...bt haizz...juz duno y he say he was otw home bt ended up hangyn ut wif frnz and came hme at 5am...i juz dunno y muz u say thingz n u dun meant it...

i totalllli hate diz kinda crap...i hatyn mynself every moment & tinkYn y i dserve to be in diz condition..wad did i do wrong sey???i dun gt it at all..i easily cool off bt hard to gt angry though i juz m sad dat can't mit coz he is alloactyn to pulau bukum soon for course...haizzz..ther can get communication meh??haizzz..dun tyk so...bt if can,dats gd....i cried jz nw while talking to Mat Rawk coz jz can't tahan wif diz kinda crap...i can gt nasty & violent bt for wad ryt??i dun gain anytyn at all...bt i can sense dat we gona b alrite..insyaallah..bt hay i'm all hyper & bubbly so i gain in sumtyn for tat ryt??(....or not??)...bt wadda heck sey,i envy hym coz he gt to go out wif hys fmly & njoy e bondyn of a beautiful fmly rapport..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz...i gt none coz myn dad bz wif hys career bt i undrstnd...i'm undrstndyn owaz bt jz sum pple dun gt it which dey presume i'm askyn for too much 'ATTENTION'..wareas i'm nt sey..bt loadsz of attentn wd be nice & sweet...awwwww...WADEVER...wadda heck..anihu..later m goin for religious class & bck to myne flyers thingy which i reali m blank sey...haizzzzzzzzzz...so tmrw no wrk bt bck to flyers and organisyn for spring cleanyn in e office & chg of aura...n tinkyn of addyn more live to e office..(any ideas???...)...hmmmm...i juz m now in e office waityn to gt out jer...juz countyn dwn e tyme dats all..soon i'm gone to sum place to let myne heart out...

..........gtg..........ASSLKM.............

--------------------eternalEmbraceToYou----------------

>>hmmm..e National Dae...

2007-08-10T09:23:00.000+08:00

...ystrdae was S'pore Bash bt hey i 'did' haf a 'gd' tym wif fmly bt hey i admit tat it was e mosssssssssssssssst boringgggggggggggg trip ever...=(...i wen M'sia wif myn whole fmly & myne kuzzinz..alah,e nrml routine jer..bt i'm e moz dull person coz i didn't tok much bt i ate loadzz & cld feel me gttyn heavier...haizzzzz...gota diet(help me Mat Rawk!!!)..HOPE myn chum Fizdeutsch had a gr8 tyme wif hys fmly at e beach...(^-^)...todae bck at wrk still sleppy though coz wen hme late & nt enuff rest sey bt hey me m owaz on e move rmbr tat hor??..mwahahaha..anihuz,i kinda feel sad at tymz loosyn frnz one by one...M I SOO weird TAT U WANA END FRNDSHP WIF MOI??..i juz dun gt it..ther are 2 pplle whom we haf to choose wisely..one is true fren while the other one is Chum..in btwin diz 2 categories of pple..i dun aim for both bt yet i'm more to being mynself & waityn for sumone to accept me for who i am N wad i m...i do tyk tat LOVE SUMONE WHO LOVES U NT U LOVE & DAT WILL GRANT UR TRUE HAPPINES COZ IN E PHUTURE TO COME,U'LL REALISE U'LL FALL IN LOVE WIF DIZ PERSON & CAN'T B APRT FRM DAT PERSON..of coz till now i do haf doz kinda momentz wif sumone bt for now i'm damn attitude tat pple haf strt lukiyn at me wif doz eyes...i juz colled up myne chum Pooh..n we seem to kinda bicker and ended it peace...bt kinda tyk we haf sum mis-intepretatn..

bt wadda heck ryt??i'm nt dat so-called-as e 'angry' kind...bt more to e emo kinda person..haizzzzzz....i'm mre to e undrstandable type(i dunno ar...maybe??)...bt hey if u noe me well,i guess u can komen me all u wan..=l...btw todae i tyk everione havyn their holidays esp myne sis now havyn fun at hme or maybe still sleepyn peacefullly...bt i do tyk dat being angry is no solution to everytyn ryt??so control ur anger nt anger control u rmbr tat plz??...gtg..

::e eve of National Dae....::

2007-08-08T08:06:00.000+08:00

my of coz..its myne dearest cincapor bash of..42th(i guess???)..wokey it is 42th sey...woah blive it or not cincapor still livyn up to its name and soaring all e way to e coming generationz..BOW TO S'PORE...haittttt'''...aniwae,i came wayy early todae juz to open e office bt hey dats myne job aniway sey..i came at abt o6:45am..early ryt??bt hey for e sake of myne dearest country hor...mwahahaha..ystrdae had a breakdwn wif sumone who kinda loves to jump to conclusion sey,i juz dun gt it abt being jumpyn to conclusion...i oso m a big fan of jumpyn to conclusion bt nt 24-7 seyyy...bt wadda heck,i'm to blame owaz for everytyn,Sorry to myne dearest Pooh....

but atlast kind had a gd chat with mAT Rawk ystrdae,he seems fine wif his camp lyf bt owaz m sianzzzzzzzzzzz(jz lyke moi)..haizzzz..bt hey its e tot tat counts for me...& i'm kinda pissed wif myneself coz stil till now i haf yet to find a commitee for the ramadhan sey..haizzzzz...ask every sOUL i know bt all seemz bz wif their lyf...wel,wad can i say ryt???haizzzzzzzzzz...bt so far i'm onli towards myne learnyn journey & m still learnyn till diz veri minute....i haf yet to col myne prvt sch bt haf not even tot of it coz jz noo mooood to b bck in sch for now...enuff of torturement last tym..bt hey sabar itu iman ryt??i'm stil m patient abt it bt still diz very minute i'm still m nvr ready to go bck to sch sey..i duno y(maybe fINNAncially??/...)bt all i can conclud eis that i'm nt studying bt jz retakyn myne modules due to failure 2 of the modules in that particular semester...so had to re-take lor...haizzzzz...BLAME IT ON ME FOR BEING DARN DUMB...=(...haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............i'm now like in e office n tinkyn for myne phuture & wads next for me..bt i'm sure i will b bck in prvt sch & wrkyn at e same tyme coz i juz can't rely on myne parents 24-7..Myne parents hafe done loads stuff & sacrifices for me & i hate mynself for causyn trouble onli...though its never myne attention to make dem wori or having to cover up myne mistakes at tymz..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..me such a FAILURE....haiyah..while typyn diz,myne tears of thanfulness rolls down myne cheeks coz i'm thankful to Allah & my frnz,fmly,Nady fmly & Mat rawk for tahan wif myne ridicule owaz..bt anihu,i juz am thankful for wad i am n for who i am..ITS ALL UP TO DOZ SOULS TO ACCEPT MY BEING...may e force be with You dear soulz..

wel..gtg..e minister r coming soon...Amin..

----------------eternalEmbraceToYou-------------

:::at last...i blogged ON:::

2007-08-07T17:05:00.000+08:00

WOKIEEE....i admit nt typyn in for darn looooonggggg..coz benn dwn and not up yet....i noe there r ups and dwn in lyf bt face e fact,we are owaz towards wantyn e best for ur phuture & generatnz to come...bt phewww,for me...i'm more to mynself bt thanx to diz so-called-as 'cinderella shoes' of myne,i ended up hurtyn myne foot & havyn werst blisterz of myne lyfe..

haizzz..gtg...

::i'm bck to myn comfy place of SMILES...myne NADZ fmly..::

2007-08-03T12:08:00.000+08:00

well...todae bck at wrk...wel akceli,todae.loads of stuff painful for me..coz myn tummy in darn pain & myne head is asking for a bang..its darn painful ryt noe bt i'm juz puttyn up a front to everibody esp myne mum..i hate makyn souls worid for me sey coz its jz not myn type of person jer..haizzzz...bt soo far i'm handlyn e pain nt bad coz yea rmbr me bein e 'SUPERWOMAN',LOLX..more lyk i nid painkillers ryt now sey...i reali do..all i nid is H2O..bt m doin myn wrk first..and todae is Fridae Prayers so kinda gonna be packed wif OUR souls...hw comfortyn is that...awww...i reali lyk fridae coz of seeing our men/boys in nyce malay clothes,vibrantly & colourful...isn't tt sumtyn nyce???..anihu..i havyn e baddest pain ever..i haf to go...may e Force b wif u myne SOULS...

---------------------eternalEmbraceToYou------------------------

::wel...again...i nvr wen wrk due to...::

2007-08-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

i'm nt dat ok...well,hmmmm..akceli i am sick...a darn pain in myne head ryte now so didnt wrk todae..haizzz...painnnnnn seyyyyyyyy...arghhhhh'''...

anihu,mish myne pal Fiz(mwahahah)aniwae i kinda c hym gettyn thin sey due to being sickkk..haizzz...me???wel..stil e chubby me as per normal & e way u wan it..ANIHU,saturdae is e dae for ISRA' nite so all e bez to fizzo being e chairperon,mwahahaha..MAY E FORCE B WIF U BRO...BT ok wad bein chairPerson all u nid is e tablePerson onli which is ME...kwakwakwa...

WELL...i gues todae nutyn much coz myn head kinda killyn me so gtg...Asslkm...

---------eternalEmbraceToYou--------------

::WEEEpyn Soul::

2007-08-01T15:30:00.000+08:00

-love myne old ME-

:::freaking out ME:::

2007-08-01T10:12:00.000+08:00

This happened about a month ago just outside a little town in the bayou country of Louisiana, and while it sounds like an Alfred Hitchcock tale, it’s real. This guy was on the side of the road hitchhiking on a real dark night in the middle of a thunder storm. Time passed slowly and no cars went by. It was raining so hard he could hardly see his hand in front of his face. Suddenly he saw a car moving slowly, approaching and appearing ghostlike in the rain. It slowly crept toward him and stopped. Wanting a ride real bad the guy jumped in the car and closed the door, only then did he realize that there was nobody behind the wheel. The car slowly started moving and the guy was terrified, too scared to think of jumping out and running. The guy saw that the car was slowly approaching a sharp curve, still too scared to jump out, he started to pray for his life; he was sure the ghost car would go off the road and in the bayou and he would surely drown, when just before the curve, a hand appeared thru the driver’s window and turned the steering wheel, guiding the car safely around the bend. Paralyzed with fear, the guy watched the hand reappear every time they reached a curve. Finally the guy scared to near death had all he could take and jumped out of the car and ran to town. Wet and in shock, he went into a bar and voice quavering, ordered two shots of whiskey, then told everybody about his supernatural experience. A silence enveloped and everybody got goose bumps when they realized the guy was telling the truth and not just some drunk. About half an hour later two guys walked into the bar and one says to the other, “Look Boudreaux, ders dat idiot dat rode in da car vhen we were pushin it in da rain!
=============eternalEmbraceToYou============================

2007-08-01T10:09:00.000+08:00

sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

::woahhh....hmmmm...::

2007-08-01T09:02:00.000+08:00

morninggggzzzz SOuLz in e whole UnIVERSE...mwakakakakak...anihuz,i'm glad atleast myn effort of tryin to re-create sumtyn which i've nvr tried which is sussing out e blog thingy,its hard sey bt sumOne did komen & gaf a ratyn of 6/10..muahaha...ckp jek lau tk lawa den i will do e best i can..internally,i did try wad...hahahha..anihuz,todae aft heard diz particular song in myn MP3,kinda dwn abit sey(wah liao eh,jz coz of a song CAN mke a soul sad all e wae)haizzzz..sianzzzzz,,,bt aftr hearyn an old-sch sch 'turn e lites down' frm Bob Marley & Lauryn Hill,it juz make me swayed in e train jz now...phewwww'..i waz lyk OMG,i nvr did realise wad e heck i waz doin bt hu cares aniwae,its myn lyf..leave it OR love it...ITS EITHER, u plan to fail or fail to plan ryt???bt i owaz dun plan anytyn thus it comes itself naturally eg, LOVE....mwahaha..dun wanna budge ther for now coz myn heart is stil under construction of amendyn it into a true full heart...'SIGHHH'...anihuz,i wldnt even care...ohhh yeah,ysterdae kinda met a soul bt i waz irritated sumhw wen i met hym coz i dun even noe e reason y i gt mad in e first place..there is a saying 'CTRL UR ANGER B4 IT CTRL YOU'...woahhh..i was darn sure myn temper was ctrrlyn me..haizzz...wazzzup wif me,den i ended up goin hme helplessly hungry bt hey i'm a CHEF rmbr??i cook for mynself n eat it up...haizzzz....hmmmmphhh...=)...bt sumhw i didnt managed to overcme myn anger wen i wen hme coz e first ever i saw was myn sisPiqa..she's such a cuddly cum bubbly cum chirpy cum eberytyn dat goes wif hepiness..e first thing wen i put myn right foot in waz i gave Salam den e 2nd thingg was tt SisPiqa gave me a bigggy Hugggg for me...& myne anger just melt from there..awwww...(Love u sis=])...Myn 2 sis are e greates gift frm Allah bt e best wld owaz b myne parents for leetyn me c diz world knowyn & undrstndyn me since i waz a kiddo..hw elated & thankful i am towards dem bt i do feel i haf not gave myne best towards dem so myne hopes are wif myne 2 sis who's gona b in e same scholl at last in 2008 at Newton Area...How fortunate dey are to gt dat sch...haizzzzz....i cldnt gt sch of doz kindz coz its FATED i guess??...nah,nvm..its past way myne tyme to say abt it aniwae...i juz m hepi wif e way i am...& of coz myn mum been naggyn abt me bein toooo chocolateyyy...haizzzz..wadda heck sey??izit a crime??haizzz...i'm now gona face tru diets bt its myne kinda style..i m fit & healthy juz myn heart not that gd coz rmbr soulz 'myne heart is stil under constructn'....okies..gtg...Asslkm......

.................AMIN...............................

===============eternalEmbraceToYou================

.....halleluujahhh....

2007-07-31T14:25:00.000+08:00

wuhhuuu..look at that kiddo,dats jz remind me of myn sis...mwahaha..atLast,hepi wif wad ic & ofcoz hey its jz a cratch onli bt wadda heck ryt??atleast i tried in doin myn blog...LOLX...aniwae pple dun care abt US bt hey at tymz if we reflect upon ourself we all noe the rytz & wrong bt yet we keep on repaetyn e same thing over & over again.....haizzz..y sey??hmmm...i do feel at tymz lyk 'look whos talking' bt hey its a matter of tym tt we wil noe hu is e BLAME one...i can nvr gt things ryt due the stuff arnd US...Bt if we do tyk on e other side,we owaz haf to tyk tt "life is owaz on e ryt side for US'...hmmmm,anihu...in all,i juz judge mynself upon wad i reflect everidae lyf-goingz...Bt aniwae,i judge sit one corner & tyk wad is best for me & myn lyf coz no crap frm anione wil mke me tyk lyk dem...I'm jz lyk ONE of U oso sey,bt juz e age onli e difference,so waddaheck coz even Demi Moore married Ashton Kutcher..DUH'...lolx...so...hwz myn lyf???hmmm..alhamdulillah..i beginnyn to smell e old-bubbly ME bt abit onli lor...haizzz.....bt hey3,its nvr e end of e werld ryt??eventho lyf iz a challenge,i stil manage to crawl out of it(tk padan sey si mon-mon nie)...mwahahah..i duno hw u label me BUT i'm sure i'm juz lyk e girl-next-door if u do c me dat is...=)...Never say NO to opportunities dat welcomes U bt mke sure dat e opportunities tt u r welcomed,is ACCepted by Allah...Insyaallah,opportunities may strt small bt we shld gif out god's gift to US which is our brain to suck it all up & venge it on e opportunities to make it BIGGG!!!...Amin...(^-^)...gtg now!!
.....................eternalEmbraceToU........................

*oh yeah....

2007-07-30T12:03:00.001+08:00

ohh yeah..i omoz forgt..all i say is abt myn a new chum i juz knew at wrk...So far i owaz see diz 'soul' at madrasah bt now,its lyk i'm seeing diz soul omoz everidae at wrk coz diz soul is one of e YOUTHZ geng...mwhahahahahha...wel,abit abt diz 'soul'...hmmm..wel,i considerd diz 'soul'as e same weird-ness AS me bt juz m silent dUDE...bt i guess i juz talk too much tt i dun gif other pple a chance to talk,dats e baddest prt of ME...lolx...bt anihu,i haf rated myn sapce of talking as in,i dun talk tt fast now or so-called-as 'EXPRESS TALKER'....haf diz capability to talk damn fast & it does irritate pple at tymz bt hey its gd to b different owaz bt not forever..bt hey,internally i used to be a freakynly hush-hush gal wif no sense of character at all,though stil haf e bd records bt hey wadda heck..no fun mah if no lyf...=p...

............................eternalEmbraceToU...............................

::E WEekEndz::

2007-07-29T10:12:00.000+08:00

.......e weekends,??..its bd..i didnt go to wrk & havyn a bd fever...haizzzz...lately,i've been tykin loads & day-dreamyn all e wae.. i dunno y bt i guess i juz nid 'ATTENTN' or maybe IAU...'Intensif Atentn Unit'..haizzzz...

dats kinda weird bt i juz dunno y...haizzzz..U C????i've been sighing since jz now...haizzzz..

Tmrw bck to wrk,mittyn wif all e hepinez i cld find tmrw...bt of coz myn hepinez m stil findyn & seekyn til i find e new true hepinez...i do haf hepinez juz bside me whom haf owaz been ther for me...haizzz...i muz thank to myn sweetest chum,Mat Rowk..."hugz2"...

bt so far its been ok2 wif dat Mat bside me or owaz m ther wen Mat cld be....

NOW,all i wanna do s tke all e sleepyn pills & sleep till eternity...."SnoOOoOoOoOOZZEzezeze"..

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ............y m i damn sianz??.............BT TRULY,i do m bein appreaciatif towards everione,i noe dat w/o myn fmly i wldn't b herre...bt truly,i'm jz m ignorant over everytyn...bt so far,i thank HIM for givyn me e hope & faith of livyn it tru,i mean hu can ever face each dae with e person who gaf birth to U & nt tokyn to U...CAN U BLIVE TT??

i'm wrking in custmr Line & seeing parents wif their son/daughter so alive together it's damn irritatyn...& i hate mynself for it...i look upon mynself as "eradical" child...

havyn to mke pple wori for me wen i'm so-called-as big gal....arghhhhh!!!..juz cant tke it at tymz..aniwe..gtg..

...........................eternalEmbraceToU......................

::a dae at Irsyad,a day to rmbr though...::

2007-07-28T19:30:00.000+08:00

wel todae was myn sis School Carnival thingy..well..it waz darn UNSpAcIoUs coz was lyk full of souls...or UnKNoWn Souls..mWAhahHAhhA..anihu,it waz cool though coz it strted out brite & shiny AND all of sudden it got chillyn coz e weather wasnt on many pple side...'sigh'...i waz darn drenchd & cldnt tke any pic due to sum pple pissing off wif e rain...haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

how cld dey gt piss off wif e rain wen its GOD's worth..i juz thank god tt it rain ysterdae coz it waz a form of blessing for me coz myn mum strtd buildyn up e bond wif moi...haizzzzz...

bt in all i cld learn sumtyn out of diz event that is "discipline & organised"...in all everytn waz talentd among e students yet i guess due to e rain it coz loadz of hectic among e stallholders & pple havyn to queue under e rain & dat includes ME...i had to lyk queue almoz to 1 hr juz to gt a kebab for myn mummy...haizzz...bt it waz worth it coz,all serve HOT & YUMMY...""magnificento""...hmmm..aniwae.it nvr gets better & i juz m fed-up wif lyf...esp. Fmly..haizzz...i juz can't tke it...i m facin wif shit everydae,i tried smilin unfakingly bt it turns out to be faked...hepinez of myn juz untrue coz of ME...frankly,i'm nt e bez Daughter,Sister or Soul at all...haizzzzz...

I'm givyn shit to everione,its better off me bein RIP...i juz hate mynself for bein unobedient & juz hate to say it 'BlAcK' child...i'm now lyk typin diz blog thingy while everibody shittyn e hell out of me...F*&^%% PISSED NOW!!!!....i hate mynself damnly now...

gtg to Eternity Souless Place.............

................EtErnalEmbraceToU...........

::i'm bacccccccck....& wif e newest me...

2007-07-26T09:35:00.000+08:00

....woah..its been 2 HELL of years..i'm nt been blogged into diz thingy...woahhh..i'm impressd tt i cld stil rmbr dat I DID HAF A BLOG...LOLX...wel lyf diz two years more to down rathe den ups...i duuno y...parents haf been bickeryn coz of ME...gee i duno..at tymz i feel wrong having to wrk n fend mynself...haizzzz...izit wrong for me to smell e surroundyn arnd me aftr all diz tormentyn lyf...i'm nw a so-called-as in e line of Custmr Srvc..BT gods willyn,i'm goin tru wif it fyne..Alhamdulillah..i thank HIM coz til todae He nvr fails to motivate by his verses...Love for Him haf nvr failed me to looked upon or reflect upon wad i can do for e bez of myn phuture ahead..i'm now m no more e SWEET-SEVENTEEN...moz pple labell me as 'old on a young shoulder'..bt hey wadda heck..i'm used to it & i'm learnyn every opportunities dat comes by...seriouzly,i'm a pain in e arse oso bt i'm more to e ACT-'dunno' kinda person wareas i noe...JZ ACT DAFT,to b unknown...oritey..bck to serving e organistn..
.....................::eternalEmbracetoYou::................................

hmmm..

2005-11-21T16:40:00.000+08:00

wel...todae waz da big exam...i did my efw..PHEWWW,its great...

especially havyn a bonkerz fwen bside ME...ehehehehekzz..

yea..last 1 mre dae or sort of da last paper tml..haizzz...dats d last IOP geng

mitz...haizzzzz.....its sooooooo shatteryn for me though,bt we juz haf to move on dear fwenz...

huugggggggiezz n mishhhhhhezz to U allll peepziez...

KEEP In touch owaz.....REMEMBER HOR'...hmmmmmm....

hollla me back OR juz kol up mAMA bear aight?

-mishja peepziez owaz N ever-

hmmmm...

2005-11-11T14:30:00.000+08:00

wel...abt yesterdae...

lion n her lil fwen ask me n baby bear to hang-ut wif demm instead wif ur

own fwenz...i feel bad havyn baby bear to go alone coz i too wanna go

njoy da scene wif dem..i hope its gonna be fun...heheehehehehekzz...

hmmmm...but hey i juz had a talk wif dem...n dey respect it sooo i guess,thankz

to baby bear..yeeeehaaaa...aight gotta go peeepziEz...

xxAdiousGuaBerambosxx

eyloooz....

2005-11-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

wel,it da first dae forja oll peepziez MEGA exam...1stly gd luck,...
HEPI N gOODY LUCK FORJA PEEPZIEZ...

STUDY HARD hor...heheheheheh..especially to oll e 5N2 peepziez..

hmmmm..mishja Miss thia,miss Ct,Mdm Sal...eberyBodie...hmmmm..sowie if i ever hurtja feelynz or sumwat or sumware..hmmmmm...

all da bez my cutie Jann,huda,Atie,Sofia,Becca,Mabel& so on n soooo forth..wenja haf gtja results n itz a bd ONE,hehehehe(devilz laugh..=P)...REMEMBER TO BUZZ ME..i'll helpja...hmmmm..

may da force b wifja peepziez...GOOD LUCK n MAY da bez emerge frm da rest...

hmmm..

2005-11-07T04:05:00.000+08:00

wel,hmmmmm..tml iz special dae for all da muslimz peepz includyn me...

yeeeeeehhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

i lurve diz daez da moz coz it bwing all da gr8t momentz alive &

eberytyn juz seemz holly-angelic...

yeeeeeahhhhhhhh..I LURVEEEE....

hmmmm,bt 1stly,.......

juz wanna sae sowie to sumOne whom i sort of btrayd coz of da changes

of HEART....i'm reali sowie Zam...

I juz cldn't bring it up to u....coz u've been good to me...I juz didn't haf da courage to

brin it up n talk it ut wifja dearest Zam...

I'm soorie for all da sins i've done toja,May u celebrate diz Hari Raya Wif full fiesta..

dat goes to all IOP STUDENTZ....

HEPI hOlIDAE PEEPZIEZ...

toja....

2005-11-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

wel...2dae waz sort-of funni though...i felt lyke there wasn't any skul coz after da fiesta..

anihu..to all peepziez hu celebratyn diz fiesta,slamat Hari Raya to u peepziez...

hmmmm...

wel,tml iz my cutie bash...hEPPI swit-17 dearest Alvina Melissa...hmmmm...

n yea to lIOn...u Juz mke me hate e sight of u...sowie to sae diz but i jz can't 4gt those

momentz u hurt me soooooo much..

n 4 u dearest seri,dunja wori abt doz stuff anymre aight dudette?

treat it as juz wind...it pass & flowz eberytyme...u juz haf 2b huEvva U are Myne Chillin Padi..

n yeah,.................................

again,sowie abt diz LioN....U R SUMONE HU NVR APPREACIATEZ FWEN....HAIZZZ...

i juz dunno hw to confront toja...i hateja butch/wateva u tryin 2b FOLLOWER....HMMMM...yEA WATEVA THOUGH...i FEEL better shoutym ut' here...wish to sae it 2wardz u face-to-face but AS a mUsLiM,i better juz shut myself...it waz gd gettyn btrayd byja though...

-AdiousGuaBerambos-

hmmm...

2005-11-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

wel,my bash haf past...sooooo..its my fwenz bash turn..which iz Aishah aka miz simplicity..

hmmmm..hepi birthdae toja dudette..hmmm...since all diz month we've been fwenz,juz wanna letja noe itz kool havinja as my fwen..again..HEPI BIRTHDAE GAL...eheeekz!!

hmmmm..and da other would b Mei Myra..hepi advanced birthdae MEI-mei..hehehehehe

may both of u haf da moz successes in da universe..DUH'...hmmmm..anihu,all

da bez toja allmy dearest moz lurvyn fwenzie ever..ShhhhhhhMUUUacckz!!

u fwenz r de bez owaz...

n yeah me hopyn to get higher nxt yr...coz i stil wanna study n achieve eberytyn

dat i wanted eversince nursery...a TeAcHweR...hmmmm...

Dear god,

bless me wif corourFulGrAdES..Eheeekkkz xcept for ReD...HUHUHUUHheheheh...

haizzz

2005-10-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

todae suck a damn f***YN dae..haizzz..1st tyme i'm uzyn bad werdz...

haizzzzz...wadda heck wrong wif me sey?haizzz..

my 'sort-of-fwen' kinda scold me coz he sae i'm mre concern wif fwenz rather den

him...pathetic JERK!!!!!...SUCH A DIM-WIT...i hate u soooooooooo MUCH!!!!

U SUCK OWAZ...i'm never gonna forgivf u ever u damn ass-hole....=<

y does it happen to me owaz..u juz lurve makyn me sick huh?why?why?why?...

i'm sick N tired of ur werds dude...u juz getta helll ut of my lyfe...

HMMMM...........

2005-10-26T02:58:00.000+08:00

wel...hmmm..soon i'm turnyn 71...ooopziez..no..no...itz SwiT-17..EHEEKZ..

yeahhhhhhhhh.....wel,da fastyn month gonna b over soooooon...

YaHooHohOhoHOhohHOoOHohOHOhO...

LYFE GONNA START OR sort Of bck to squArE One...nO MrE DwEaDZ OF

FASTYN..eheeheheheeheehehekz..

waityn in process for my prezziez...eheheh..

I gt an mp3 frm my bro..thanz bro..hmmm..N yaeh..i mish izWanDy sooooo mUch..

haven't gt any prezzie frm him though...hmmmmm(wunder wat it is...hmmmph!!)

wel..for my case,stil searchyn for a mega awsome mobile for me..hmmm..

wunder wat shall i choose...

hmmmm...i jz duuno wat to do wif my lyfe diz daez..haizzzzzz...

my mom jz sae dat i'm jz nt matured enuff for werkynhood...haizzzzzzz...

i jz dunno wat or how to make my mom's dae....i juz dun get it...

anuihu,back to my beztezt wishes n regards n eberytin more....

i JUZ WANNA WISH ALL DA BEZ FOR MY DEAREST MAO-MAO GANG FWENZ...bez forja

o-levelz..sooner OR later,its gonna b over n u peepziez can

njoy 24-7 wifja loved ones...maybe wif me,anitin juz buzz me up aight?...

hmmmm....i wish could b wifja NOW...hhuhuhuhu...

LyFe iZ COmpLiCaTeD,iZ Up tOjA To EnSuRe WhIcH Iz Ur pAtH oF LYfE dEaReSt PeePzIeZ=)

yeehahahahaha....DUH'

2005-10-25T10:45:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHH....

2005-10-22T04:29:00.000+08:00

HAIZZ...diz daez been bz up to my panty hose..haizz..

bz wif DA fIESTA kUmIN sooN...IN ABT 1 WKS...yeahhhh..

hmmm...den nw me typyn stuff so called as DaTaBaSE..dUH'...

WEL,lyfe iz complicatyn diz daez...lost contact wif fwen...hmmmm...den

...no mre fwenship,haiz..mish my fwen Mr.Dexter...haizz...

lyfe jz seem uncertain ithout a fwen...

WARE U dexter FWEN??????

hmmmmm...i jz duuno waddup wif pple diz daez...

juz dun gt it...sum r cheerful..lyke my chilli padi gal..n my cutest baby bear..

lab u both cutiezz...sHHmUaCcCkZzZz!!!!

WEL,IN 22 nOV,no mre skulyn for me n geng Bishan...hmmm..

i wil owaz remember..da momentz we've been together my dearie maggotz fwenziez..=)

to my ChIlI pADI aka Seri,

i wishja all da bez in ur lyfe...

I NOE u cld go higher nxt yr..all da bez mittin new fwenz..&..

DUN 4get me tau..hehekzzz...wishja all da bez cHiLLi PaDi..=)

to my cutest fwen of IOP...

i reali gain xperience n knew wat lyfe iz all abt now..

thanz fwen...arigato gozaemaz IOP peepziez...

I'M GONNA MISH U PEEPZIEZ...HUGGIEZ & smmochiezz...eheeekz=)

and yeah anuther stuff...

hmmmm....

..............................................................................................

its gonna b my biggy bash....

yeeeEEeEeHaAaAA....my SwIt17 bash kumyn soon...

..............................................................................................

...................in....................................................abt..............

......................................6 daez=)HAHAHAHA...................

hmmmm...bd to da oldiezz..

2005-10-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

wel..its da fastyn month..everione iz sufferyn lyke one of a kind..ahaakz!!

hmmm..as da holy month strts,many strts 2 crops up..problemz...problemzz.. AND more problemzz...haizzz...hmmmm...my bunch of fwenz seems hepi n bck to demself..

dats good,n i proud of dem hu haf face da truth n nt hide-ut frm da reality..its gd

2b da so-called-as 'heppily ever after' sort of scenario...it happen to me too many tymezz bt hey maturity arises as u go on..hmmm..One thing iz to nvr gif it up in wateva u do..

it suxz wen u gif up,hmmm...

to my dearest fwen Seri..hmm..i hope eberytin iz smooth 4 ya..nvr ever gif up in wat u're pursuing now dudette..itz totali awesome hangin ut' wifja yesterdae..we're da total bonkerz dudettez..includyn ur' baby Bear,Janna..yeah..totali rawk yesterdae...yeeeehaaa=)

& few werdz frm me iz dat..u juz haf to battle diz war diligentli...emtionali..n never ever...say dat lyfe suxs..Diz iz wat lyfe iz all abt my fwen..u jz haf to attend to da hardship n sadness owaz..

Up to ja to tink positifli abt it OR to jz torture urself to da max my fwen..u Reali RaWk MY WERLD..it gr8t havinja as My cUtEsT & CrAzIeSt pal...woOoOoHoOoO!

hePI 17 Bash TO dEaReSt SerI

2005-10-11T00:05:00.000+08:00

wel,jz wanna wish a biggy heppi BaSh To dEaReST SeRi & sYaHiDaH..

HMMMM..so u dudettez r 'SWEET-seventeen' sey...eheekzzz=)

all da bez to both ofja..hmmm..hope u lyke my prezziez SeRi...

jz a small gift frm me..Peace & LOVE OWAZ...

and SeRi...MAKE A WISH KUM TRUE FOR TODAE COZ ITZ UR BIGdae FORJA...

and yea,i pray for ur health & hepinezz 24-7..

may u remember to HIM owaz k?pray to HIM n wish da

bez out of ya..

remember aight dudette?hmmm..wel,gtg b4 da NyOnYa kOk seez me..

-AdiousGuaBerambos-

-newz for todae-

2005-10-08T03:58:00.000+08:00

my baby iz spoilt...haizzz..y ohh y..my baby iz myne mp3..eheekz..itz spoilt..arghhhhhhhhhhh!

i jz can't live without music...

music iz in my blood eversince i emerge in2 diz universe...haizzz...

i feel dreadful without myne baby...haizzzz...

wel,hopyn to get da buckz within diz week...hmmmm..

i wan it baccckk..=(

-got bck wif old fwenz-

2005-10-05T02:24:00.000+08:00

i gt to tok to my oldiez bunch of fwenz jz yesterdae...reali mish

my old fwenz soooooooo much..wel,i knew diz fwen eversince i waz 15

in sum Sailor's Skool..hmmm,hope u peepziez noe!!...hmmm..wel,her name is jann..

she's cute,small N perky jz lyke me..

now,my fwen takyn her O-level..1stLy,all da best to all 5N2 IN WOODGROVE SECONDARY SCHOOL..

i mish u peepzies sooo much especially ..HuDa..Jann..RebeCca..hIdAyAH..mIZ CT..mDM sAlImAH..sOFIA..

haiyah..soooo much mre..hmmm..bt 1st N foremost my dearest WoodGroVeRs,all da veli da best

for ya mega ExAm creepin around da corner sooner..hmmm..pray for ya peepziez owaz..

& to Jann..u've been there for me wen i wept ut' durin da results dae..

THANK U MY CUTEST MEI-MEI..hmmm..mao2-mao am soooo glad & appraciatif to haf metja in my lyfe..Arigato gozaemmasta Jann..hait!!hehe(8P)...

U've been da candle which haf lighten my lyfe all diz while...

Thank u soooooo much=)